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Female, TN, member since Jan 2008
my name is natasha. i'm 24 yrs old. i'm married to a wonderful man. his name is jason. we've been married for almost 2 years now. i recently found out that i am pregnant with our first child together. i have a beautiful, wonderful step daughter who is my world. i can't...
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the wonderful world of BFPs
Apr 14, 2008 04:35AM
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ok so things didn't quite turn out the way i had hoped. i did another beta hCG and my levels had dropped. i'll admit, i was very disappointed. i strongly believed i was preggers this time around. i have kept an upbeat attitude about this whole conceiving thing for over a year now. I kept saying that my time would come. I just feel so let down. i feel as though the world is getting a kick at getting my hopes up only to see them fall flat to the floor.
on the other hand, one of my friends that just found out she was pregnant earlier in the week had a miscarriage while we were working tonight. i can gripe and complain all i like but the truth is my situation is better then what could have happened. i can't really feel sorry for myself knowing that a good friend of mine is hurting and is in so much pain. she got pregnant and lost her baby. so at this point, i can't feel sorry for myself or pissed off at the world. it could always be so much worse.
in closing, i just want to say that one of these days i will join the wonderful world of BFPs. and until then, i can only try very hard to conceive, pray every hour of every day, and hope that something happens. it's not always in our hands as much as we like to think it is. i just thank God every day that i am alive, i have a wonderful family, and a promise of eternal life. having a baby would put the icing on the cake, but sometimes all we can do is let go and let God have control. He has it anyways. It's just realizing that we don't and learning to let go.
on the other hand, one of my friends that just found out she was pregnant earlier in the week had a miscarriage while we were working tonight. i can gripe and complain all i like but the truth is my situation is better then what could have happened. i can't really feel sorry for myself knowing that a good friend of mine is hurting and is in so much pain. she got pregnant and lost her baby. so at this point, i can't feel sorry for myself or pissed off at the world. it could always be so much worse.
in closing, i just want to say that one of these days i will join the wonderful world of BFPs. and until then, i can only try very hard to conceive, pray every hour of every day, and hope that something happens. it's not always in our hands as much as we like to think it is. i just thank God every day that i am alive, i have a wonderful family, and a promise of eternal life. having a baby would put the icing on the cake, but sometimes all we can do is let go and let God have control. He has it anyways. It's just realizing that we don't and learning to let go.
Natasha-
Thank you so much for sharing that with us. Sometimes, we feel like we are the only ones going through something, like we are the only ones feeling a particular way..as I was reading your post, I thought wow someone is feeling EXACTLY the same way I am! Over the past few days I have gone from being very happy at the thought that this was my moment to being so ANGRY that those of us who want to have a baby SO bad have such a hard time..then there are those who could care less..and get pregnant by just looking @ their husbands (or significant other). I think AF has found me today after taking a 7 day hiatus. I was so sure i was pregnant. 7 days late!! and today BAM out of no where. I feel stupid for still trying to keep hope that maybe its something else..because it hasnt gotten heavy yet. But like u-i feel foolish for continuously getting my hopes up to be let down. I feel like someone is playing an evil trick on me =*(. But like you said..our time will come, there are women in worse situations. We have to let go and let Gods will be done.
Thanks again for sharing
xoxo
Thank you so much for sharing that with us. Sometimes, we feel like we are the only ones going through something, like we are the only ones feeling a particular way..as I was reading your post, I thought wow someone is feeling EXACTLY the same way I am! Over the past few days I have gone from being very happy at the thought that this was my moment to being so ANGRY that those of us who want to have a baby SO bad have such a hard time..then there are those who could care less..and get pregnant by just looking @ their husbands (or significant other). I think AF has found me today after taking a 7 day hiatus. I was so sure i was pregnant. 7 days late!! and today BAM out of no where. I feel stupid for still trying to keep hope that maybe its something else..because it hasnt gotten heavy yet. But like u-i feel foolish for continuously getting my hopes up to be let down. I feel like someone is playing an evil trick on me =*(. But like you said..our time will come, there are women in worse situations. We have to let go and let Gods will be done.
Thanks again for sharing
xoxo
nata- that totally sux im sorry but with your positive attidude youll get your BFP justt not when you want it..it will happen like you said its in gods hands and you put every thing in perspective i never really thought what other woman have to go through just to have a sucsessful pregnancy some woman experiance far heart breaking things then me and i feel so bad because here i am sayin how its so sad me not being pregnant. i didnt get on here on sunday really just to check and see if you had posted any news. i wish you the best of luck and pray things will happen for you. baby dust to you :)
p.s your so young and soo very mature for your age. you really dont see woman with your attidude, its soo very nice to see that your more about what other woman go through then your self. one day you will make a wonderful mother. you have so much heart its amazing :) i just also would like to thank you for your support its good to have and i value your opionions and what you have to say :) thank you sooo very much nata
p.s your so young and soo very mature for your age. you really dont see woman with your attidude, its soo very nice to see that your more about what other woman go through then your self. one day you will make a wonderful mother. you have so much heart its amazing :) i just also would like to thank you for your support its good to have and i value your opionions and what you have to say :) thank you sooo very much nata
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