thankfulness

I have a philiosphy that if I share the negative with people it is only right to share the positive.  Earlier this week I shared several negative things going on.  I also shared that my mood was down and I was just having difficulty looking on the bright side of things.  First of all squeaker is doing fine.  I know that not all people are animal lovers so hope they will just bear with us that are.  I did not sleep well the night she was sick as I was afraid she would die.  She made it thru the night and was acting normal the next day.  Thank you everyone for you prayers.   I never thouht I would be thakful for pain.  Many people are aware that I was very sick in April and was left with some poor muscle tone in my leg, hand, and just over al weakness.  I am using a 4 wheeled walker and have difficulty standing independently.  I am not driving,  I frequently fall bruising myself fairly significantly.   I currently have no medical insurance as it just sent out the cobra paperwork yesterday.  Needless to say finding the positive has be a real challenge.  Last night I started having the attitude of graditude among all this garbage.  I started having episodes of sharp, burning pain on my legs.  After the initial shock I found myself extremely thankful for the episodes of pain.  I knew it was nerve pain which was my body's way of letting me know my nerves were starting to regenerate.  Thankful for pain??? You bet.  Painful =positiveness..you bet.  Never thought I would be one to appreciate pain.  Being housebound has no way of being a positive thing.  Well....if one really looks at the the situation and not be afraid to really examine the situation almost any situation has a positive side to it.  Prior to me being sick by hubby and I were going thru some trying times.  Not bad just alot of adjustments around his retirement and my physical ailments.After the possibility of loosing me our thought were definitely focised on more important things. I have felt my hubby's love more then ever before.  We have established a routie of sitting in the loveseat together.  Sharing our feelings and emotions very normal and special.  Instead of anger over being house bound, feeling like there is no relief in sight is traded for the feeling of thankfulness for love, the baby steps showing improvement of my leg.  I also have found the wonder of God opening the doors to many positive, enlightened quotes and sayings that I come across as I work on sorting my "junk/stuff"  that I have collected thru the years.  I would never take the time to sort thru that stuff or read them.  With an unlimited amt of time due to not being able to go anywear gives me another thankful moment.

All and all God is good to me and under no circumstances could I say I have nothing to say thank you.  I just need to remember to keep an open mind, ask to be shown the positive.

"As it is in nature so it is in God's Kingdom.  From the winds and rains of adversity comes abundant growth and a beautiful life worth painting."

"Do not be afraid to suffer.  Do not be afraid to be touched with afflictions beyond your own ability to cope.  It is from being shaken apart and not being destroyed that one becomes strong and courageous.  By submitting to God through circumstances beyond our control, we see the great depths of his protection and provision.

May everyone be able to see the good even in the negativeness of their lives.