May 12, 2009
Okay, I'm going to break down here and have a pity party. I hate being one to complain, but I just need to get this off my chest so I can get over it sooner rather than later.
My boyfriend, Brandon, can officially be classified as a super-geek. He loves science, math, engineering and architecture. He does this stuff for fun. Call me lame, but that's actually one of the qualities I find most attractive about him. I normally don't have a clue about half the stuff he carries on about when he talks about his classes or his work projects, but something about a nerdy guy talking like that is admirable to me.
I've been dating him for a year and a half and have thought he was Mr. Perfect and flawless and wonderful and the best ever...until this weekend.
Apparently, he thought up this project a couple of weeks ago. He never told me, though. Normally he lets me know the kind of stuff he's doing that will require extensive amounts of his time and energy so that I have a head's up on when to expect to see significantly less of him than I already do (which is maybe twice a week for a few hours). I am and want to be supportive and encouraging for him to follow his dreams. He has A LOT going for him, and it's just as important for me to see him succeed as it is for him to achieve his goals.
Well anyway, he has been working on this project, this invention, for a couple of weeks and he never said a thing to me about it until the day before Mother's Day, which is when he called to cancel coming over and spending the day with me--ON MOTHER'S DAY--when we had planned that day together for the last week! He calls and is like, "I've been working on this project, and it's going to be a really big deal if it works! All I have to do is solve a few mathematical equations and get the last parts of it from UPS. So I won't be coming over today. I'm too focused on figuring this out and I don't want to lose my focus."
WHAT?! All I could think is, where the heck did this come from?! He's been working on what? Since when? And he's ditching me for Mother's Day?!
I won't lie, I've been mad at him ever since. Yes, I'll be the first to admit that this whole ordeal is actually a bit funny, and I have laughed a few times because it's so ridiculous that I'm ticked off at him for inventing a science project, but--*sigh*--I will be honest when I say I'm jealous of his science project.
Yep, laugh it up.
Don't get me wrong, I'm highly enthusiastic about what he's attempting to invent. And if he actually succeeds and it does work, I think he's right about the potential of it being a big deal.
But oh my gosh...these last few days it's like he's found a new love. This thing is all he talks about, all he thinks about, all he cares about. He dotes on it, and I'm not even joking.
When I went over to his family's place for Mother's Day and he showed it to me...oh my...he's like a little kid who's all excited about a fort he just built in the back yard or something. Lol. You should see the way he looks at this thing--and it's not even finished yet!
Good grief, I feel like I've been replaced. Only a few days ago, he was the wonderful man I knew who sent me sweet text messages and called me every day and asked how I was doing and wanted to be with me and Trev any chance he had.
Then literally overnight it seems, there's something new in his life that is the most important thing ever. I guess what irks me the most is that he never told me anything about it, so having to unwillingly sacrifice the attention I normally get from him is not coming so easily when all the times in the past, I've had no problem sacrificing a week or two of time with him due to his school, work, or family issues. But this time, I'm finding out that most people (work and family) knew he was working on this project--guess he forgot to tell me.
I called him last evening to ask if he'd gotten his UPS package, and how things were going with the project (see? I'm supportive). He's so dang excited about this thing that he rambled on and on and on about it, and I seriously had almost nowhere to get a word in edgewise. He might as well have been talking to himself. He didn't once ask how I was doing or how my day went (completely out of the norm for him). Then his sister called, so he had to hang up to talk to her, but said he'd call me back later.
Did he call back later? No!
He sent me a stupid text message at 9:30 saying he was going to bed--didn't even say goodnight or I love you.
I'm jealous of a stupid science project. I feel like this is the most inane rant in the world. But it was relieving to get it off my chest.