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Feeling sad....

Sep 29, 2013 - 0 comments
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Sad

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depressed

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getting worse

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acid

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stomach ache

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Pain

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gas pain

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nasea

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continuous burping



I woke up depressed, now Im just really sad. I have been feeling sad a lot lately. I know theirs people out there worse off then me but Im tired of having to live my life this way. Im not usually a sad person, but having an ongoing health issue I think would bring anyone down. I hear people all the time tell me their so depressed because their so lonely they want a bf/gf but I think if I just had my health and could live a normal life like Im suppose to I would be very happy. It seems like Im sick all the time now with some random symptom and doctors wont do anything else for me. I think they have given up on me and meds don't help. I have tried just about every acid reducer available still get sick. I take Beno if I eat or drink anything that could make me gassy and if that fails I take Charco Caps for the gas pains and if that dont help I just lay around and suffer until it goes away. My GI doctor did 2 endoscopys on me. One before my gallbladder was removed which the night before I was throwing up solid acid ever 15 to 20 minutes and the other one was a year ago. Both times my GI doctor just said I produce to much acid. If thats the case I don't understand why acid reducers dont really help me and I don't get heartburn. Acid reducers may help me be able to go without eating for a few hours but either way I always get sick if I go to long without eating and even when I do eat I can still feel nasous and gassy. I basically just have to live my life not knowing how Im going to feel. I could feel fine one minute and the next I could feel aweful. I have been battling these stomach issues since I was 17. Started really getting sick when I was 21 and suffered for a while then finally got my gallbladder out in 2011 got better but still wasnt 100% and now here I am at 25 years old and noticing Im getting worse again then how I was a year ago and am running out of options. I keep thinking how will I feel in 10 to 20 years from now. If I still feel sick on a daily basis I dont know how I will live a normal life. Doctors basically want me to cut out everything that I eat to see if it helps but what I dont understand is why they keep giving me meds that dont help and wont do any more tests on me to find out whats causing me to produce to much acid if thats the case. Normal people my age can eat whatever they want and dont have any problems. I have had a days where I just took a sip of milk or coke and had gas pains for 12 to 24 hours. It felt like someone got an air pump and filled me up with air. I would even try to throw up some air just to get some relief. Then on rare occasions I can have days to where I can eat and drink whatever I want with no problems that never lasts more then a day or 2 but when it does Im happy only to pay for it the next day or to later. Yesterday I had a mild stomach ache and was nasous so I tried eating I still had the ache and was nasous most of the day. I started feeling a lil better later on but I knew if I didnt eat dinner I would start feeling real acidy and nasous so I ate still felt a lil nasous and then a few minutes later started getting horrible gas pains. It was like a sharp stabbing pain in different areas of my stomach. I didnt know what to do it felt like how I did after I had my gallbladder removed. The pain went to my back and it hurt to breath, and talk. After about 20 to 30 minutes it finally went away but I still felt gassy and kept burping. I finally went to bed then woke up a few hours later feeling real nasous and gassy like I could just throw up a lot of air or acid. I didn't wanna move because I knew I would start gagging so I just laid there and eventally feel back asleep. Now Im awake going to face another day not knowing how Im going to feel. I basically just needed to write. Thanks to anyone who read all of this. Hopefully your health issue can be resolved. Take care.

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