Oct 02, 2013
I've been clean for over a month, but I started cutting after being afraid of moving away to another home, and then after many nightmares, even a nightmare about my ex r***ing me, I cut more. Then he ended up m*****ing me, and I cut more and more until I cut every day. I'm worried about relapsing. I always end up giving in to my addictions. I suffer from anxiety, depression, adhd, ocd, pdd, high-functioning autism, and I can't even remember my other mental illnesses. I feel like I constantly am going insane. I feel like a failure, and thoughts like that, well..they make me slit my wrists again. I miss cutting, but I shouldn't.