Oct 22, 2013
So lately I have been going through a lot and I just recently thought about what I really need to do for myself and what I need to do to make mine and my daughters life better. I recently went through a horrible time with my boyfriend, and found him talking to another girl and was very upset and depressed about it because I thought about leaving him and if that were the case I wouldn't have been able to do things with my life that I plan on doing the next couple of years. So I talked to him and we decided to take our relationship slowly and try to make it better for the sake of our daughter. We also decided that we don't spend enough time together to work on our relationship so we decided to move out December 1st. I am extremely nervous and not sure if I'm doing the right thing but I can only hope for things to get better for us. With that being said, I have a few goals that I want to happen for the next couple of years that will not only help me but help him and get rid of the extra unneeded stress. So right now I am working on moving out with him, loosing weight ( this is more for myself because I am not happy with my body, I am planning on finally getting my license because I am 20 years old and need to stop relying on everyone to take me everywhere, I plan to go back to college in 2015 which is my biggest goal and I want it to happen more then ever, and I am also currently looking for a job so I cam actually save to go back to college, buy a car, and help randy out with the apartment so he doesn't feel forced to do it on his own. I really need things to start looking up from here on out because even though I have a new baby and couldn't wait for her to be here, I am extremely miserable because I sit in the house all day and just wish and hope for things to happen but they aren't going to happen if I don't try and act out on it. So this is me getting my *** in gear because I still want to do the things that are important to me, and I want to do them so I can provide for Kylie and my future children. Everything needs to start getting better because I am loosing my mind, I'm ready to be exhausted from trying so hard. Kylie is my new motivation for these things to happen, shes gonna help me focus on the important things that I need to do so I can get back to enjoying my life. I love her so much and want to enjoy her everyday and I know if everything else was going good in my life things would be perfect.