Trying to wean off oxycontin

today I got down to 120mgs and the morning is always the worst for me I feel like I cant move,depressed, I feel so stupid and sad that I did this to myself and my family again. My husband is also an addict and claims he wants this as much as I do. I dont beleive him, what really set him of was that his dealer referred to him as a junkie and that pushed him to say he's done, not my begging crying and pleading nice right. I dont care what makes him want to change as long as he trly wants to change and if he dont I will need to make him leave before he kills me right along with him. I got clean he promised he would when I got through the worst of it, and he didnt which made me have even a harder time staying clean I still blame him for my relapse I would have never went searching for it I just wouldnt have but when its right in your house how can you fight the cravings? I fought through 2 months finally feeling like I had made it through only to go backwords and I pray I can do it again.

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