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WTJ... what the junk.. ranting, mayber even senseless ranting

Jun 01, 2009 - 2 comments

As if I was not ill enough to begin with, anxiety, ADD, PTC and FM now I have low blood sugar and have to control that aswell. What I could eat was already limited due to my egg allergy now it's just cut down more. Not that losing weight by basically following close to the atkins diet wont do me some good. How did I discover this... Well all the sudden I went from having my stuff managed to suddenly getting dizzy and staggering when I walked, getting grumpy. Feeling completely sick when I thought all was getting better and not to sound like a boob but I knew it wasn't my meds considering I have been on the same medication for over two years now. The only thing that has changed is the doses of my pain meds and diamox but not the medication it's self. Also the meds were uped months ago so why now 3 months after the doses increased would I show side effects that are disterbing my daily life... I wouldn't. I felt for about a month that I was trapped inside of my body screaming out for help and no one was listening. Which I did in fact try to talk to my family about my current situation and they blew me off. They all figured it was just my normal illnesses and yes as you all know fm and ptc can do strange things to a person but I have been going threw those for a while and I knew this was something native. So needless to say I have been on my new diet for a couple of days now and no I don't feel 100% improved however I am begining to feel semi normal. I am having occassional but not long lasting dizzy spells. However once I counteract those with protien it goes away quickly. I swear to you all I want to be put out in a hospital with each type of speacialist in the room running test so by the time I wake up I know that no other crazy illness will come along and make my crazy for about a month untill we figure out what ELS is wrong with me.  Well now I am done ranting for the moment I will talk to you all shortly.

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by mamita00, Jun 04, 2009
OMG!! I swear I would just love that myself, I've often thought how nice it would be to go to a great hospital and have a specialist from each area of my troubles and just let them all go at it and work together and find some kind of connection or common ground. It's hard when you have so many different people treating you and they aren't necessarily on the same page.

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by bethaniet586, Jun 05, 2009
No kidding, my nuro doesn't agree with my pcp on my ptc. Thank god my nuro has yet to know of my new diagnosis of fm or he would have a whole different set of things for me to do than my pcp. OMG I have something new to tell everyone, apparently anxiety took over my life from the moment I found out I was sick and had no idea. I knew I had panic attacks and what not but I had no idea what anxiety was doing to me until I decided I was no long at risk for post pardom (or however you spell it I do suck at spelling). So I stopped it and had a two and a half hour long panic attack which only ended with me sitting in the doctors offices rocking back and forth on the bed table and burning a hole into my brand new jeans by rubbing my legs to try to calm myself down. Anywhos it the doctor put me on lexapro and that medication is a god sent everyday I feel more and more normal. (if you don't have anxiety I will explain the best I can.)

When you come out of anxiety and it is going away, when you feel the wind on your face it is like the first time in years the cold breeze, goose bumbs, sun light, seeing people ect. It's like you have been in jail since the episodes started, but you could watch everything that was going on in what should have been your life and now you are walking out of jail and away from watching and can go back to living you life like a normal person.

I know I probably sound like a coo coo catchoo to some of you but those of you have gotten anxiety under control know exactly how I feel now.

But any howser.... my point to that story was I have to give my doctor a thankyou card maybe bake him somthing and let him know that he without a doubt gave me my life back... yes I still have pain and right now I can't see but that I can deal with, heating pads, glasses 2-3 scripts of them, pain meds, ect... but when I felt like I was going nuts that is not something you can rub or stretch out.

well thankyou all again for reading me ramble on about things that may and may not affect you.

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