in my 2WW

I told myself I would keep myself busy to make the wait easier,  I am doing it now by typing.  This can be a shared diary ..fun fun fun.  I am now at 10DPO and getting cold feet,  I still don't have a focused mind about next month in case I fail this month.  The different thing for me this month is having no symptoms... I know I know.  It can be good or bad sign.  (Hoping for the good sign like all you ladies) I had a horrible diarrhea last night wich is new.  I always get constipated at these times, wich I was yesterday until last night.  It was horrible I felt grossed out with that diarrhea,  and the only different thing I ate is tamarind from china town.  I used to eat them and I am fine.  I am going to see my chiropractor today and sad to say she can't fix my scoliosis.  But she said she can fix my pelvis wich is a bit off according to her.  She also found out that my thyroid needs a bit of help.  I am a bit skeptical but hey! she got my 37 year old friend pregnant, so I am giving it a shot.  She gave me some iodine drops.  She also said it helps regulate temps in my body.  it's a healthy supplement so why not.  I was asked to take it twice a day but I only take it once now since I get iodine in my prenatal vitamins.  YOu know sometimes it occurs to you "maybe it's not meant to be"  my heart usually objects... but I want one :(  This is my third round of clomid and  I am not sure if I can handle another round.  Easy to say , hard to do.  Emotionally draining.  So now I go with the flow. My mind is a rollercoaster today, one minute it's like oh yeah well what ever .. and after that it will be like WTF where am I now in my cycle, what's happening, do I have a chance... All of it.  I think I am insane now.   Once in a while I BBT just to see if it's up or down in a day or three.  Just a bit easier for me to relax if I don't have to check and analyze my bbt.  this is getting long but I would like to get it all out.  I don't really care if my opinions here contradict each other LOL... I means I keep ovulating with clomid but WTHell I am not getting prego.... hmmmm my patience is getting shorter.  One day I even thought of like,, I don't care anymore with baby or not I can be happy... but that's just my stupid side.  I hope I entertained you all with my nonesense journal....  Keep smiling :) Baby dust :)