Apr 24, 2008 04:29PM
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--profuse production of saliva
-results in
-wetting shirt at night while asleep
-wetting shirt during day while napping
-very strange, high cough which leads to choking
-large quantities of saliva coing out and me almost not noticing
-incontinence (both bowel and urinary)
-lack awareness of body
-resulting in the sense I have lost touch with my perceptions
-which is to say "a blunting" of perceptions
-I feel I am waling around in a cognitive bubble
-sound amplification -- as if everyone is shouting
-me shouting for no reason
-loss of the ability to sniff something
-tingling of hands and feet to numbness of hands of feet -- to swelling of hands and feet
-loss of the ability to mechanically hyperventilate
-loss of the sense of smell or decreased sense of smell
-scratching of the scalp, nose, ears -- continually
-sores on scalp
-rubbing of the eyes to a greater extent that is comfortale
-can read and comprehend what I am reading and can write and comprehend what I am writing
-BUT, if I attempt to put thought into a verbal modality, what comes out is not what I intended
-on bad days this may be a "verbal salad" where the words don't make sense at all
-on good days, my articulation is that of a slightly drunk individual
-which has become staus quo for me, everyday of my life
-i.e., this is a drunk version of me, but not me
-thus, we have a person who is logical in thinking and writing but cannot speak without great difficulty and the moment he attempts to verbalize, it changes into an unintended form
-in this transtion, we go from wrting in an articulate way -- sometimes to verbal mush
-this person is working around a speech defect which appeared in December 07
-confusing one person for another
-as in greeting the nurse as if she were the doctor
-confusiing on location for another
-started as a simple human confusion but escalated to a situation where I am asking "Why is that building there?"
-i.e., my internal map does not match realiity
-relexive muscle movements
-in the neck and shoulder area
-and increase when under stress
-in the mouth and lips
-"lip smacking"
-occur all day long (30-50 times)
-ADHD symptoms magnified
-especially concerning short term memory and losing items
-I start something then walk away from it, then come back and "notice it" with some degree of surprise
-When I lose something I panic and kind of go into a dissociative state where I can't find it
-Bad allergies which cause mental confusion
-with the sense I am physiologialccy of balance until I take a pill and must do this to stay sane
-sensitivity to most allergy meds including Zyrtec, Singulair, Bennadryl
-Sensitivity to most ingest materials
-may be "Multiply Chemically Senstive"
-Oversensitivity to pain
-Weird muscle aches that keep me from rising in the morning
-which is to say muscle that are too stiff, whether I have exercised or not
-Weird, internal pains upon rising
-pain localized in heart area, slowly goes away
-deep pain localized in lower spine finally abates after a hot bath and trunk rotation
-Licking lips all day long
-Tongue ulceration
-Temporal problems
-resulting in the sense too much time has passed
-resulting in anger and impatience
-Depth perception problems
-which result in dangerous street crossings
-Hypersensitivity to environment
-Changes in body chemistry
-increase in sweating
-no body smell or can't detect body smell
-Odd muscle behavior
-getting up after siting for one hour is way too difficult
-Leaping to conclusions which are totally illological and may get me into trouble, socially
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-Increase in spilling things in the house
-choking on an early morning cup of coffee and the sense I am going to spit it out
-a simple hopping over the wall that I have done since childhood turned into a kind of blackout and fall (from five feet)
-painful, forced urination
-odd bowel habits including incontinence
-phantom smells
-they come and go and appear to be of a hallucinatory nature
-swelling of hands and feet
-I wake up to find my index finger swollen or my entire hand swollen
-Within a few hours my ankle swells and does not go down for days
-cognitive impairment
-seems to be getting worse, day by day
-subtle coordination problems
-as in cutting onesself shaving
-or missing mouth while putting fork in mouth