Apr 24, 2008
--profuse production of saliva
-very strange, high cough which leads to choking
-large quantities of saliva coing out and me almost not noticing
-incontinence (both bowel and urinary)
-lack awareness of body
-resulting in the sense I have lost touch with my perceptions
-which is to say "a blunting" of perceptions
-I feel I am waling around in a cognitive bubble
-sound amplification -- as if everyone is shouting
-me shouting for no reason
-tingling of hands and feet to numbness of hands of feet -- to swelling of hands and feet
-loss of the sense of smell or decreased sense of smell
-scratching of the scalp, nose, ears -- continually
-sores on scalp
-rubbing of the eyes to a greater extent that is comfortale
-can read and comprehend what I am reading and can write and comprehend what I am writing
-BUT, if I attempt to put thought into a verbal modality, what comes out is not what I intended
-on bad days this may be a "verbal salad" where the words don't make sense at all
-on good days, my articulation is that of a slightly drunk individual
-which has become staus quo for me, everyday of my life
-i.e., this is a drunk version of me, but not me
-thus, we have a person who is logical in thinking and writing but cannot speak without great difficulty and the moment he attempts to verbalize, it changes into an unintended form
-in this transtion, we go from wrting in an articulate way -- sometimes to verbal mush
-this person is working around a speech defect which appeared in December 07
-confusing one person for another
-as in greeting the nurse as if she were the doctor
-confusiing on location for another
-started as a simple human confusion but escalated to a situation where I am asking "Why is that building there?"
-i.e., my internal map does not match realiity
-relexive muscle movements
-in the neck and shoulder area
-and increase when under stress
-in the mouth and lips
-ADHD symptoms magnified
-especially concerning short term memory and losing items
-I start something then walk away from it, then come back and "notice it" with some degree of surprise
-When I lose something I panic and kind of go into a dissociative state where I can't find it
-Bad allergies which cause mental confusion
-with the sense I am physiologialccy of balance until I take a pill and must do this to stay sane
-sensitivity to most allergy meds including Zyrtec, Singulair, Bennadryl....
-Sensitivity to most ingested materials
-may be "Multiply Chemically Senstive"
-Oversensitivity to pain
-pain localized in heart area, slowly goes away
-deep pain localized in lower spine finally abates after a hot bath and trunk rotation
-Licking lips all day long
-resulting in the sense too much time has passed
-resulting in anger and impatience
-Depth perception problems
-which result in dangerous street crossings
-Hypersensitivity to environment
-Changes in body chemistry
-increase in sweating
-no body smell or can't detect body smell
-Odd muscle behavior
-getting up after siting for one hour is way too difficult
-Leaping to conclusions which are totally illological
-increase in spilling things in the house
-choking on an early morning cup of coffee and the sense I am going to spit it out
-a simple hopping over the wall that I have done since childhood turned into a kind of blackout and fall (from five feet)
-painful, forced urination
-odd bowel habits including incontinence
-swelling of hands and feet
-I wake up to find my index finger swollen or my entire hand swollen
-Within a few hours my ankle swells and does not go down for days
-seems to be getting worse, day by day
-subtle coordination problems
-as in cutting onesself shaving
-or missing mouth while putting fork in mouth
Enhanced List of Neurological Symptoms
But --- I started having a set of symptoms which I have never heard about, read about or even remotely dreamed about. They always start with allergies and probably anaphylaxis.. But these then degrade into various neurological states including:
•a sense I am frozen in space and can't talk or articulate
-Rebecca Amatia (SW Counseling) took me to the ER on Friday 9-12-08 for these symptoms -- I was then hospitalized (in the regular hospital) and released way too early on Saturday and don't remember much of that day
-incoherence -- very evident on 9-12 but comes and goes in severity
-loss of short term memory -- a few minutes up to "days" that I can't remember fully
coming and going of visual acuity
-amplification of sensation
- -I have dubbed this my “neurological bubble”
-deep, rich, surreal, coloration
-has happened a handful of times
-sounds like everyone is shouting
-light can look too bright to be real
-normal pain is overreacted to or I actually feel more pain
-pain and itch are confused to the extent I will go crazy
-urinary pain is either worse or overreacted to
-the sense that something in my mouth is larger than it is
the sense my lips are large when I lick them and I know they’re not
-a spastic licking of lips comes and goes
-the sense that my fingertips are exaggerating what they feel
-the sense I misjudge how much mass is at my fingertips and make sensory errors turning a page
-can’t read people’s affects
-misjudge the severity of incoming news
-the sense I cannot understand what is coming out of people's mouths -- exaggerated accents –
-only happened one time
-the sense I am in a cloud and can't think -- these weird metabolic states can come and go for 30 minutes or last all day
-the weird inarticulate voice of an 84 year old man -- I call this "the palsied man voice" but basically I don't know what to call it
- -words are recited in a slow, slurred way
- -articulation is very very difficult
- -day long episodes with the "palsied man" where I have that voice all day and a don't recognize much of anything about me
-palsied means “inability to move” or “muscular inability to move part or all of the body” so I am not sure the name fits
-short term memory attacks -- where I am adding to what is being spoken and not picking up fully on what is spoken and so I can't transcribe a recording of my own voice without about 100 per cent inaccuracy
-this has happened only one time during a horrible 2 AM allergy attack
-increasing intensity of tardive dyskinesia symptoms until entire muscle groups are in spasm
-drooling and many Bell’s palsy symptoms
Recorded in Anaphylactic Space
Note: blows are a large blow into a paper towel.
I am off in the perceptual space where little blows are confused with big blows, etc – this is anaphylaxis space John! You have agonized when you arrived “in this foggy, snowy space” without any clue as to how you got there – clearly today you documented and wrote and documented and wrote to everyone out there – until you slid into this snowy foggy quiet space. I repeated myself and didn’t realize it. There is no doubt that this is the weird metabolic state where perceptions are totally off. And it’s anaphylaxis.
And I am having problems remembering what I just typed -- so this is also short term memory loss land! But when Cate called this morning I was already there.
The quietness of this also portrayed a waiting period between this and some other state – like acceleration or gridlock – but I think this is a gridl
Body temp up
Spastic licking of lips!!!
Spastic shooting of saliva on the floor=1 as in Bell’s Palsy squared. – I’ve been there before – on my wild spastic days of sessions with the Ataxic man – yes and now I can safely say that those states have to be allergic in nature. But I fantasied that an antihistamine would take me out of this hell – but it hasn’t.
Nose running coupled with the urge to urinate!!! As if the metabolic by-products were exactly the same.
Urgent urination with Dysuria (pain = 7)
One big long hard blow
Drop runs down corner of nose.]
I jump when eye itch pain hits me=1
Increase of lip spasticity with allergic symtoms
Body temp up
Bolt of eye itch pain that makes me jump in my seat
Time warp here also – I feel suspended in time – so add that to the list of anaphylaxis indicators – if anyone ever lived though these they would have recorded these responses.
Scratching and itching of the right eye
Licking of lips spasticity increases
Note = can’t spell!!!
Voice is off – too soft and too plaintive!!
Spastic choking on juice
Short term memory problems with keeping the count correct!!!
Last emergency call was 60 minutes ago – not 5 – as in what’s apparent to me in this space = what you have experienced before and this must be similar or synonymous.
Body temp- up
Scratching of cheek
Running of the nose
Short term mem effects getting worse – as in not knowing what I just typed.
One big long hard blow coincident with the desire to urinate. (pain =0) 35 min ago you recorded the exact same response
Drop runs down nose
Body temp up
Itching of outside of nose
Drop runs down nose while urinating
I just talked to myself logically but the voice is way impaired.
Itching of the scalp
Calling of 911 and going in for an allergic emergency!!!!
Features of anaphylaxis that I share are:
3. Sneezing, runny nose ,nasal congestion
4. Repeated coughing
5. Sensation of choking
6. Itching, tearing and redness of eyes
7. Blurred vision
8. Itching of auditory meatus!!!
9. Pruritis – as in profound itchiness
11. Metallic taste in mouth
12. Anxiety, confusion
13. Rising of body temp
14. Sense of impending doom
15. Erythema – redness of the skin as caused by sunburn – as in Flushed Upper body
16. Short term memory loss ( have an Internet example of this)
17. Dysuria, urinary frequency, urgency of urination as in my reaction exactly – about to pee one’s pants
18. Swelling of both feet
Note: mine appears to be a case of protracted anaphylaxis as the above symptoms have been going on for about 3 months!!!I’ll bet basically no one has undergone this reaction for this long!!!