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I'm SOOOO NERVOUS

Apr 26, 2008 02:28AM - 1 comments

I couldn't sleep last night.  I'm so worried about the surgery.  I layed awake in bed thinking and my husband knew that I was thinking about the surgery.  He told me not to worry.  I told him that I was worried to be put to sleep completely and that I was afraid that something would go wrong or that my complext cyst would be malignant.  I'm also worried about the vertical incision I will be having.  I read online that there are more chances of it re-opening and longer recuperation time.  I cried for a while.  I told my husband I was afraid that I wouldn't see my son again.  I know that it's not likely that something will happen to me, but I can't help worrying like this.  Especially when I've had almost a month to research and think about all this.  I'm terrified.  I'm glad my husband supports me though.  He makes me feel better.  I just want to get it over with.  I think I might just faint from worrying.  I'm also very worried about the anesthesia.  I have never responded to it right away.  Even when I go to the dentist or when I had my c-seciton, they had to put multiple doses on me because it wouldn't do much at fist.  I'm worried that i won't be completely asleep when they start cutting me open.  That might sound silly, but I really am worried about it because of all my past experiences.  I can't wait for it to be over with.  I'm more worried about the operation process than the recovery process.  I know how painful it is and I've felt that kind of pain from my c-section before.  I'm scared.  I know I keep repeating myself, but....I'm so scared. I'm sure my cyst grew already.  It was over 10cmx5x11cm almost two weeks ago and it had already grown by 3 cm in three weeks.  The only thing I'm looking forward to in the recuperation period is reading my books.  I don't get much time to read now because I have my son to take care of as well as my niece and nephew during the day, let alone the house chores and cooking.  With not much else to do, I will have plenty of time to finish all the new books I just bought.

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by gochoosy1, Apr 27, 2008 07:56PM
HONEY!!!   I know how you feel,  I cant sleep either or go to work.   Luckily they gave me some time off.  I have to take sleeping pills just to be able to breathe thru the day and night......   I've never had surgery at all, and I know its routine, and the death risk is low, but it is there all the same.   I even wrote a will just in case....   Talk about freaking out!!!!!  Try not to worry,  the Doctors and assistants will make sure you are asleep, they will double check, Im sure.   Plus  Im worried because at first I was told I was outpatient surgery, and now they are telling me I will probably be there for about 30 hours.., but unlike you, I am more worried about the recovery process being painful, or having cancer and not being able to see my kids for much longer.   BUT its only natural to worry,  try and relax take deep breaths.  Ask your doctor for some medication to calm you down if you have to.   I dont even know how you can be taking care of all those kids,  I can hardly move from pain and fear that I will get torsion.   I have 3 tumors
one the size of a lemon and two the size of golf balls  at least thats what size they were last week.!!!!   I keep wondering if when I wake up I am going to have a larger incision!!!!      But seriously,  if you are so worried that you are having pjanic and cant sleep or function, you need to ask for something to calm you down....   Being so tense is not good for you when youre healthy, let alone having issues.....   Take it easy!!!   PS  I just bought a bunch of good books, too!!!    Lisa

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