Positive triggers!!!

Today I have 37 days free from the evils of methodone,in the beginning I never thought I'de see 37 hours.I am eternally gratful that I have made it this far and realize I still have a long way to go before I will actually feel like I am once again leading a "normal" life.Because I am still very new to recovery I find myself spending alot of time ,maybe too much sometimes, focussing on what my triggers are so as to avoid them at all costs.Sometimes Im my own worst enemy,which would explain alot about my life,and I think about things too much causing my anxiety to knock me on my behind.Such was the case today,so I forced myself to get off the couch ,out of the house,and take my granddaughters for a walk.It was a beautiful day ,the girls were enjoying the fresh air,and after packing on 32 pounds while on methodone,I certainly needed the exercise.So we're on our way back home and all of a sudden there was just this smell in the air,like the smell of summer.It was warm and sweet,it smelled like lilacs and I just got this euphoric warm feeling inside.I was pushing Hannah,my grandbaby, in her stroller and that smell took me back to a time when Hannah's mom was a baby and everynight in the summer after baths and before bed I would put my kids in the stroller and take them for a walk.I always thought the fresh air before bed helped them to sleep better.It was amazing how just the smell in the air took me back to a place in time where I once actually did lead a normal life.It triggered me into remembering just how nice life can be once the fog has lifted.I swear that was the first real sign for me in all these crazy 37 days ,that I remembered what it felt like to be 'ME' again.