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Dreams
Apr 28, 2008 05:21AM
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Just thought i would write these down before i forget them all. I have already forgot quite a few.
My dreams--------------
Around 17 weeks
i had my baby (dont remmeber actual labour). I woke up after the baby had been born and the baby wasn't there. I asked my mum and she said because i looked so exausted from labour she had took it upon herself to adopt the baby out. I was so upset about it and she was really apologetic but there was nothing we could do because i had signed trhe papers in my post birth doped up state.
Around 18 weeks
I dreamt that i had the baby and someone offered to look after her while i travelled around the world. I was reluctant but decided it was a good idea. When i returned they said i couldnt have the baby because i had abandoned it to travel.
19weeks to now
Even though i have been sure since i was first pregnant that the baby was a boy, Oscar Xavier, i continuously dream i have a tiny premmie girl.
Last night.
I dreamt that i had the baby (a boy) and it was quick and traumatic. I wanted to immediately leave the hospital and they let me within minutes of the birth. When i got home it wasnt my home, and it was far to dirty for me to handle with a new baby. I knew i had to go back to the hospital to learn how to breatfeed and everything but my mum said it was too late. I insisted we try and return, thinking of obscure reasons like the fact i was bleeding (what i knew was normal after birth) and my milk would come in soon so i might get the three day baby blues. No one would let me so i had to try make do. The baby wouldnt let me breat feed him. I tried and tried and asked my mum to teach me how and help me but she couldnt. The baby got to a point where he refused to try and suckle. My mum gave me formula. I really really really didnt want formula. I wanted to breast feed my baby. I felt inadequit. I woke up.
This may have something to do with the fact that i just recently realised i have started getting pre-milk (colostrum). Out of all of the dreams this dream was the most vivid and has left me feeling unsettled all day.
My dreams--------------
Around 17 weeks
i had my baby (dont remmeber actual labour). I woke up after the baby had been born and the baby wasn't there. I asked my mum and she said because i looked so exausted from labour she had took it upon herself to adopt the baby out. I was so upset about it and she was really apologetic but there was nothing we could do because i had signed trhe papers in my post birth doped up state.
Around 18 weeks
I dreamt that i had the baby and someone offered to look after her while i travelled around the world. I was reluctant but decided it was a good idea. When i returned they said i couldnt have the baby because i had abandoned it to travel.
19weeks to now
Even though i have been sure since i was first pregnant that the baby was a boy, Oscar Xavier, i continuously dream i have a tiny premmie girl.
Last night.
I dreamt that i had the baby (a boy) and it was quick and traumatic. I wanted to immediately leave the hospital and they let me within minutes of the birth. When i got home it wasnt my home, and it was far to dirty for me to handle with a new baby. I knew i had to go back to the hospital to learn how to breatfeed and everything but my mum said it was too late. I insisted we try and return, thinking of obscure reasons like the fact i was bleeding (what i knew was normal after birth) and my milk would come in soon so i might get the three day baby blues. No one would let me so i had to try make do. The baby wouldnt let me breat feed him. I tried and tried and asked my mum to teach me how and help me but she couldnt. The baby got to a point where he refused to try and suckle. My mum gave me formula. I really really really didnt want formula. I wanted to breast feed my baby. I felt inadequit. I woke up.
This may have something to do with the fact that i just recently realised i have started getting pre-milk (colostrum). Out of all of the dreams this dream was the most vivid and has left me feeling unsettled all day.
I'm sorry about your dreams. I used to have some pretty weird and vivid dreams during pregnancy as well. I kept telling everyone that I wanted a red headed daughter (like me) with bright blue eyes and fair skin. In one dream I was in a coma of something and woke up to find that I had given birth to my daughter and that she was now like 2 years old (but in my dream I had only had her a couple days before). I thought she was the most beautiful thing until I felt something kick in my stomach and knew it wasn't my baby sitting in front of me that she was still in my stomach. So my mom told me that she didn't want me to be disappointed so she had a adopted a baby for me on the condition that when I had mine I gave her up to them. In my dream I was so mad because even if my baby was far from perfect I wanted HER not this other child.
Another vivid one was someone was trying to kidnap and kill me and I gave birth to Aspen and was walking through the woods with her trying to find a place to hide and the man who wanted to kidnap me found me and I remember handing my baby to her father and knowing that I would never see her again but I just wanted her to be safe. I woke up from that one crying.
I also had a lot of dreams about her being a dog or cat. Weird I know but it happened.
I think dreams just bring out all of our fears and longings for when we have our child. Trust me though the dreams go away after you have your little one. And trust me you'll be able to breastfeed your little one and will NOT be inadequate but the best breastfeeder out there! :)
Another vivid one was someone was trying to kidnap and kill me and I gave birth to Aspen and was walking through the woods with her trying to find a place to hide and the man who wanted to kidnap me found me and I remember handing my baby to her father and knowing that I would never see her again but I just wanted her to be safe. I woke up from that one crying.
I also had a lot of dreams about her being a dog or cat. Weird I know but it happened.
I think dreams just bring out all of our fears and longings for when we have our child. Trust me though the dreams go away after you have your little one. And trust me you'll be able to breastfeed your little one and will NOT be inadequate but the best breastfeeder out there! :)
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