Tomorrow's the Big Day

Ok, I've done the laundry and my will. Tomorrow is surgery day and I can't sleep. I took that laxative I was supposed to and it is gross!  I even tried holding my breath and pinching my nose, still made me want to barf.  I'm hungry now, but nauseous at the same time.  I'm nervous.  I wish I could take my computer to the hospital so I can write in my journal as things are happening.  My husband is going with me.  My aunt and sister are staying with my son and my mom will go to the hospital as soon as she's done with work.  My best friend and a cousin of mine are going to see me too.  I think I'm going to have the longest prayer I've ever prayed tonight.  Whatever will be, will be...but I sure hope everything goes well.  I'm a good talker/negotiator though and I'm ready to try with God if he tries to take me now :) It took a lot for me to look as if everything was ok today.  I didn't want my mom or anyone else to know how terrified I am because that would probably make them worry more.  I didn't even tell my mom the type of cyst I have so she won't worry.  She's going through a depression now. She said she'd try to get to the hospital before they take me in for surgery, and I will try very hard not to cry infront of her because I don't want her to feel bad or worry about me more.  I'm going to try to get some sleep now... I'll write in my journal as soon as I can. Thanks to everyone's comments; you have no idea how much better they made me feel when I read them...