Jun 12, 2009
Now that my doctor has diagnosed me for the worst, people are treating me differently and it is driving me nuts. I live in a small town, and of course, it has gotten out that I have "upgraded my BP". People think it's some kind of disease they can catch and it's like they think i can't hear them when they talk about the "BP girl that has that baby and that boy". It's so frustratingly maddening!!!! I went to my counselor and found out that she is bp too. As is most of her family, though it is kept on the low. She told me that first of all i need to announce to myself that i am NOT a label!!!! But she is not the first one to tell me that i need to be less hard on myself it will make me stress more and have more episodes. Huh, never knew that could be a trigger :) I have read SO many books i'm tired of reading!!! But at least i seem to be doing a little better. Now if maybe i can figure out some good destressing moments to set aside....