sludge in my veins???

I feel like i have sludge running thru my veins.  My body must be trying to get rid of all of this huh?  Feels like i weigh a ton but feel like i have a ton off my chest.  Bad belly yet.  May have to have my daughter get me some gatorade.  Not sure i have the ambition today.  I still feel like this is the best thing i have done.  I am VERY determined to get thru this.  I read a blog from someone and they said each time you go thru W/D it gets worse and that scared the **** out of me.  This is the part that scared me the most when i knew i had to get off these pills.  I fessed up to my partner last night and he was very supportive too.  He told me he suspected something but didnt dare ask.  Sounds as if i was a real "*****".  Funny thing i thought i was on top of the world and happy.  I take it we lose some wieight here.  I can barely open my mouth to drink water.  Will my internal organs heal from all the abuse?