day 157

It's when you think your doing great that the demons creep up again...  I was doing great although I did come down with hives 2 weeks ago and this week an eye infection & hives...  It's either from the dirt at work or from dirt from the dogs?  but its been gross and a time where a pain pill would come in handy.  I realize I'm scared to get back out there.  Scared for something to happen to my eyes.  I just forget and rub my eye...  I want new eye glasses...  the strongest you got!  But I am afraid to go out in the sun.  I went kayaking last sunday and got a serious burn on my legs which ignited some hives on the burn..  I should've sedated myself better cause I scratched again and again, now my legs are just knarly...   So I'm basically a huge mess and it's bothering me.  I should just heal already but it's been almost a week and I'm on the edge.  Feeling the fear!

Days without vicodin