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Apr 13, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 4
Thanks - it's good to know I'm not abnormal!! Still forcing myself to go to the gym in the mornings, even if it's only for half an hour. Made myself visit friends yesterday - agree, it's better than going crazy in the house!! I'll just keep telling myself that it WILL get better! I need to give it time! x
Apr 11, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 4
And I'm still going from hyper to utterly depressed several times throughout the day. Like now - I'm just so fed up. I couldn't even be bothered going to the movies with my mother - all I want to do is lie in bed! I still manage the gym in the morning, but from lunchtime onwards - I want to wallow & do nothing. I'm sick of this!!
Apr 01, 2012 in the Addiction: Social Community - 5
Thank you so much. I know that I have some great friends that just have other things going on in their lives - that's ok. But this lot last night just acted really thoughtlessly & it was kinda hurtful. Yeah, I know - everything doesn't just suddenly come up roses because I've quit eating pills. And I need to get used to dealing with my feel...
Apr 01, 2012 in the Addiction: Social Community - 5
I feel so isolated! I went t the theatre, allegedly with my "friends" but com the end - hey all ran off to the pub without even telling me here they were going. Also - an ex-friend, one that I alienated during my drinking days - made a point of inviting the friend I had come with to her house today, right in front of me. I just feel kinda forgotten ...
Apr 01, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 6
Glad you're feeling better. When I was withdrawing from alcohol I had such bad palpitations that I actually lay awake for nights terrified in case I had a heart attack. Yeah, pretty sure it was anxiety based - kinda like a pro-longed panic attack? Toss in paranoia and it's quite a party!! It did pass after about 2 days. I tried distraction - exercis...
Mar 30, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 7
Thanks - it does help to know I'm not the only one that's going/gone through this. In a way - it proves I'm "normal" (Whatever that may be!) Thanks for your kind words/wishes. And I'll avoid cars with squeaky window wipers!! I know - this too shall pass. The worst was when my dad told me I had some zits on my cheek - I wa...
Mar 30, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 7
I keep getting irritated at the very slightest thing!! I'm so proud of myself for making the 2 weeks but a part of me keeps wondering if it's worth it...? I'm snapping at people, my shoulder is in agony & I just want peace. I know that with just 2 pills I could have a glorious long sleep, be much better humored & not care about my damn ...
Mar 30, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 24
My triggers are also arguments with ones I care about (I am so bad at confrontations that it's actually laughable! I cry just thinking about potential confrontations!!) and my friends leaving me out/forgetting about me/holding grudges/going drinking when they know I can't. Sometimes it just seems like they're trying to punish me. Or rub my past...
Mar 30, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 44
Well done!! That took guts :-) Glad you feel better. Must be kinda empowering... Am very impressed.
Mar 30, 2012 in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community - 44
77 days - wow. I can't even imagine that far! BUt, you proved that any one of us can be tempted - no-one is secure. You are so strong, honey. Posting instead of just giving in shows amazing strength. I hope you flushed them - but I know I'd have trouble doing it too. Stay strong - we're here, no matter what. You are not alone in this.