First off, please do not self medicate. Always ensure you are in consultation with your prescribing doctor whenever there is a change to your dosage or schedule. Medications affect different people in different ways. It depends on ADs you are on and which benzos you are on that affect all of these different things. Keep us posted.
Please do not do any of this on your own. As with any prescription, ALWAYS stay in consultation before you make any adjustments.
I would have to agree with lonewolf. If this is bothering you have you considered going to talk this through with someone? Learning about why you are thinking the way you do, can really shed a lot of light on the subject.