dion, flush the pills, dont get any more, and start the wd process. Im not much of a pill person, but I know all drug abuse will continue unless you have made up your mind to quit.
when ya get that list, check out a few different meetings. It may take some time to find the one that "clicks" for you. Different meetings mean different views and opinions, something we all can use when we start out the cleaning process. Also, stick here for a bit, all the love here really helped me thru some pretty rough times! besta luck on your journey!