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WHY DO I KEEP DOIN THIS TO MYSELF??
Aug 31, 2009 04:36AM in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
I not posted on here for some time. I have recently been caught up in a relapse on H and now find myself goin thru wd for what feels like the zillionth time. I have spent the last 3yrs getn a few months clean time here & there, goin to NA meetins, workin a prog but........every time I get so far (6months being the farthest) I get disallusioned with meetin...
HELP........I really want to use
Jul 06, 2009 06:10AM in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
Oh me Ive not felt like this in a while.................what is wrong with me???? I hate havin these feelins as its been a while, I still think its the loneliness that triggers me. Was relaxin in a luvly bath & "ping" it just came rite into my head. I dont have any numbers for gear anymore (I changed my sim card when got back into recovery) howe...
How easy it can happen
Jul 05, 2009 08:01PM in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
I am so very sorry 2 hear about ur friend & for the loss u suffer. Good of u to share this with us on here as sumtimes we need that reminder of what can happen Ur in my prayers Hugs xx
depression
Jul 05, 2009 09:15AM in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
Hi Bolleraday Hey I totally relate to all your sayin. I lost my gran whilst I was using and never even bothered to go to the funeral.......too interested in scorin/using. Never went to my bruvs wedn, wasnt there 4 the births of my nephews the list goes on & on & on. However...............now I have all & so much more now that Im clean and free ...
merrymaria has 1 year clean
Jul 05, 2009 09:03AM in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
Hey Maria that is truly fantastic, what an achievement. Did u do anything to "mark" the day??? That has really cheered me today to hear of sum1 getn on so well. Life is for living, I bet u really see that now. Im gona read ur post l8r, just nipn out to grab the sunshine while I can as its a rare occurence here in Scotland, most people are resemblin...
day 11
Jul 05, 2009 08:32AM in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
Hi Lesley How ru 2day?? Gee the sleep thing - thats always what gets me. I recall it so clearly, lyin there with a head full o mush with a body that feels absolutely knackered from lack of sleep, it can be such a tuf time. But......I can assure u that bit by bit, nite by nite it will get better until suddenly u find yourself getn a solid 6, then 7, then 8h...