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About Me: Female, 38, Oz - CA, member since Aug 2007
My partner is a recovering addict with chronic pain in her neck and back due to degenerative arthritis with herniated disks and stenosis. She is now currently incarcerated and I am left on the outside to manage our life on my own. I can totally do it....
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I am here for support as I have never been addicted to anything but food and cigarettes, so I really don't understand the dynamics. I adore her with all my heart and feel there more hope now than ever for her recovery. Addiction is so crazy and I often feel hopeless and helpless in her struggle.
In my head I know 1. I didn't cause it. 2. I can't control it. 3. I can't cure it. So I am praying that this experience will mold her into the person she wants to be and that she will utitilize the goodness around her to fill her heart and soul, and that she will find that she is completely loveable even though she is in jail.
I have 2 teenage boys that are wonderful. My oldest is 18 and lives with his dad. My youngest is 17 and has juvenile type 1 diabetes. He is a good kid but made a terrible mistake, started using pot and ended up getting arrested for vandalism. Now he has community service and restitution to pay, and thankfully is taking much better care of his diabetes and is now getting straight A's in school. Why does it take jail for some people to get it....Anyway, even though I think they are the best kids ever, I realize they are still teenagers......you know what I mean.
I am so glad to be here with you all. You have helped me in more ways than I can say. You fill my heart with hope. You inspire me.
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Not feeling like I am going to die. Feeling stronger. Feeling better. Knowing mostly what needs to happen to move forward. Waiting to see what God will do next. I kno...[more]
....until I can get into my car and burst into tears. I have been holding back all day. My heart is broken and it doesn't seem to matter to her. She says she cares and ...[more]
She wants to talk. She says she didn't realize how unhappy I was.....HELLO. I have been telling her for a year and a half that I was only going to do this for so long. ...[more]
