About Me: Female, 50, Florham Park - NJ, member since Nov 2007
There's alot I could tell you, but form the moment I'll try be brief. Age: 49 (Halloween). Refined and somehat privileged upbring. I married my high school sweetheart. After Law School he took up the specialized field of Divorce Law, in which he quicky rose to the to
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[More]p. I stayed home for 19 years, although acquirying 2 Master's Degrees while I raised the children, I thought myself to be thouroughly content at home, in a relatively happy marriage, and absolutely thrilled to devote myself to the kids. Meanwhile, the husband, who thrives on being revered, and is arrogant, intimidating, aggressive and assertive, (not something that was recognizable to me untill he was in Law School) had an absolute field day with aout 15 years worth of various love affairs with his needy women divorce clientel, office secretaries, and eventually his own brother's wife. I learned it all 4-5 years ago, the inevitable divorce was 09/06, and, of course, he clobered me. He has made it a cause to continue to severly undermine me since the divorce. (he felt that I was overreacting) I suspected that he has a serious narcisstic personality, and so, on my own, I reached out to a stranger, a psychiatrist that I later learned is the #1 authority on narcissim in the world, Otto F. Kernberg, M.D. Husband dropped out of therapy w/ Kernberg after a few sessions, "fired him," and announced that he didn't have any "problems." Dr. K then most grasciously took me on as a private patient W/ supportive therapy (he told me that I am not a narcissist) since June 2004. He hospitalized me at his NY Presbyterian Hosp., Westchester, NY, for major ddepreesion during the marital separation in 10/05. What I am trying to say here is that I have been under varying levels of severe stress and anxiety for several years now. It has taken it's toll on me me in so many ways, and now I am trying to find out whether I have a medical dibilitating case of the hiccoughs , every 10 seconds, for several days now, (Haven't had them in 20+ years), is something that can be brought on by stress. I admit this last year has been devasting for me: on 02/20/07, husband's bad temper "snapped" and he threw me down a flight of stairs. I had to undergo surgery a couple months later. Cervical C4, C5, And C6 had slid into spinal cord, ugly front of the neck incission, I was partially paralized, removal/stabilization of C4-6 and cord, bone grating, fusion and metal plate inserted.Plus the MRI's found several brain lesions directly above, now being regularly tracked via MRI's. Basically, I 've been disabiled most of the year. Plus I have been Suffering w/ pseudomembranous colities due to the variety of Antibiotics (clindamycin, others) since 09/09/07. Husband is now on trial for the violance.
My primary interest for many years has been as (serious) book collecter, and freelance Book Conservator. Holidays are a tough time for me, so admittedly I've tried to distracted by working on and handling some of my most calming and cherished books all week. Most date 1800 -1900. Because I 've been left to deal w/ these many (above) onslaught of issues, I haven't had much time to refurbish my own books. I know that many have surface conidial fungi, (I believe that same is active and airborne). I wear a mask and take proper precautions, but w/o any guaranty, when I'm handling them, until I can get to the point where I can professionally eradicate the problem.. Plus, otherwise they are just shelved throughout my living space.
??? So, can a severe & exhausting hiccough condition that has just erupted this week, be stress-related??? ???Or is it only attributable to an environmental etiology (i.e. a physical issue)???
I would very much appreciate a prompt response, and I thank you in advance. jmh
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