you should go see a doctor and plead your case. you may be in a difficult situation and fingd it hard to move lack of resourses etc however, your path is heading toward losing your life your child or both. The good news is there is a lot of help available. If you can't afford a doctor go to NA tomorrow. They can help in many ways. You must make the decision to escape the insanity that your life has become and act. You can do it. millions have. If you can't afford to leave that house, call around to all your local churches and ask to speak with the pastors. they should have the resourses to help you relocate. stay positive you can do this. use your childs future as motivation to stay focused on a clear goal of getting away from this man K

there are some that judge here but for the most part we are really all in it together. (damn now i have the song from high school musical in my head) sorry bout that. kids love that movie i can sing all the songs and dance all the dances LOL.. anywhoo dont know where i was going with that. NEVER be ashamed or embaressed to talk to me about anything. you can read my journal entries and see that you can talk and it will make you feel better. Des

You are in my thoughts and prayers.