How should the taper go today???

I should take a 5 mg tablet just when I really need one, spreading them apart a little.  I don't have a chart to follow  I just know that being he is so young and fast.  maybe like this

Waking:   10 mg Opana IR

MidMorning: 5 mg IR

12 pm:    10 mg Opana IR

Midafternoon:  5 mg IR

6 pm:      10mg Open IR

8 pm     5mg Opana IR

Well this looks like the first day with NO IRs.  I have them.  The headache from not having dealt with the pain seems to be getting better!!!  Praise God.  I am actually freezing encouraged to strike out into this day.  Please pray for me going into this day.  I had a very fragile g model.

I am waking up without all the pain I am used to holding in my  shoulder and neck muscles this morning. It's about 5:45.  I would say the pain is way less than I expected it to be with just 1 ER 5 mg Opana tablet in my system, although there are many 5mg Opana IR tabs swirling around inside my body.  I have had a head ache almost all day both when my strange symptoms were hanging around, and when my attention wasn't on them.  I don't know what could have made the  pain lessen, but perhaps there was a mental charge from just trying it more slowly, and away from what was expected.  But I know for moments I was close to having no drugs in my system, and still able to drive (in my dream. I don't really drive a plane) with utmost precision. As I am able to start to separate dreams from reality, I choke on how great the chasm grows between the people that fly planes in my imagination and those that want to.   a  I am so afraid of flying in read life, that if someone shows an interest, but has never flown, I try to never encourage his interest.  I don't want to be guinea pigs again.  I have heard a bit about loss lately, and don't want a new on on lost!

AB

I am tapering on Opana ER.  I was on 40 mg Opana ER 3 times a day plus prns when needed.  I had 10 mg Opana prns and then 5 mg Opana prns.  I am now on a dosage of 20 mg  Opana ER 3 times a day plus the PRNs I need to make it.  I was taking a 5 mg. ER with the 20 mg. ER.  I just decided to cut that out because I want to have the 5 mg Opana ERs incase I ever had to emergency wean myself off of Opana.  The only way I could do it would be by having the 5 mg Opana ERs to make 15 mg Opana ER, 10 mg Opana ER and 5 mg Opana ER.  I have been thinking, and I need to save up 5 mg PRNs for such a purpose as that.  
   I have had some seriously rough patches while doing this taper.  One of the worse days was this past week.  I didn't sleep a wink that night.  I was in so much pain.  God makes it that we hurt a great deal when we don't sleep.  Strong motivator to take care of this need.  I believe the tiredness of that day greatly exerbated the pain of the withdrawal.  I have had various times of feeling so anxious that I have prayed for the peace of mind to string thoughts together.  It is so painful when you can't even think without being reminded of the the fear in your mind.