Jun 18, 2009 -
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7:00 AM -
I slept pretty well, but I did take 100mg Trazodone last night. I dreamed, but nothing disturbing or particularly vivid. I woke up with a headache...it's not unusual when first beginning LDN therapy. I also feel more pain in my neck and back than I usually do at this time of day. Some on the database also report an initial worsening of pain when starting LDN. Here is the website for the Database. There was only one person in it using LDN for depression, but I hope that will change.
www.ldndatabase.com
Mentally I feel different. It's hard to describe, but I have to say I feel better. My mind started going and I felt the anxiety knot start in my stomach, but it went away with a deep breath and thinking about something positive. It took a lot less mental effort than is usual. Morning has always been the worst time for anxiety attacks, but I got up because I wanted to...not because I was feeling worse and worse laying there. And ta da...no sweating this morning.
I started spotting today. It's about time time anyway, Last one started on the 25th of May. That's 16 days ago. My previous period was 15 days after the one before. So I doubt the LDN has anything to do with it. That's about how close together they were before I started taking opiates for pain. ( I'd have one about every 3rd month on Norco). The timing of it may complicate things a bit though, because sometimes I feel better when I start. So I could be feeling better because of starting menst. or from the LDN. It may take a month to sort things out.
I still have tingling in my feet ( esp. the left ) and the heaviness in my left side, I didn't take Neurontin this morning. I don't want it interfering with any sensations the LDN may affect. I did take Acetaminophen for the headache though, and I took 10mg Buspar, as I am still weaning off of it.
I still don't feel very motivated, but showering and getting ready was easier today than it has been for a long time. I was singing as I was getting ready. I don't usually do that. I am cautiously optomistic. There is always the possibility of placebo effect, so only time will tell.
Evening:
I started feeling let down this evening. I went to a meeting and got teary when a painful topic was brought up. I havn't gotten that emotional for quite a while. If I decline as the day goes on tomorrow, then I'll increase my dose to 2.5mg tomorrow evening. All in all it was a nice day. I felt like getting out with my daughter. Really felt like it, not just going through the motions.