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Anxiety rising

Aug 09, 2017 - 0 comments

I feel myself getting very tense and anxious. I felt like this in October 2016 when I had a lot of things going on. Now I am starting a new teaching job and back into deadlines, requirements and performance expectations. I am sitting here trying to complete my class syllabus for LTS but I am being overcome with restlessness because there are other concerns racking my mind not least of which is Makeda's college admission. Things are not shaping up as we had hope and there is some aspect of guilt involved for not pushing myself harder when I know this year was going to be financially demanding with senior year and prom and graduation and college prep. The main issue was not having a vehicle which was another source of great stress. I am anxious because I want Makeda to be able to start college with her peers even though I have been the one telling her that setbacks are not the end of the world. There are so many people I want to call to ask for help, still things to do in trying to get things in place for my daughter to get into college and I am feeling overwhelmed. When I get that way, anxiety steps in and before long I am having a depressive episode.