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Just a quick note to say hi!
You deserve a big bear hug!
You're in my thoughts all the time, but especially today.
Thank you for everything!
Welcome to our community!
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Hope you feel better soon!
Congratulations! Time for a celebration...
Happy Birthday!
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01/10
Thank you for the note. I will keep in touch.
J.
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01/10
Thanks for the note I really needed that. I am not doing well. I guess the aftermath of Dad's funeral and burial finally pushed me over the edge. I need to pull myself together and I will be back.
J.
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12/09
Thank you for your note. I will write when things here settle down a bit.
ZJ
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12/09
Thanks for the note. My father finally died Monday night and we had the funeral Tuesday. Things move fast in Costa Rica. I will tell you more when things settle down here a bit. Oh, and I did it all CLEAN!
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11/09
No I haven't.  Something to consider if this continues...thanks.  I just might have a bad case of the lazys...but considering what I need to get done and even have the time to do it..I'd better kick myself in the ***.  I was going to mention too about your smoking dreams...I quit nearly 20 years ago, and still dream about them occasionally.  I'm usually in some back alley picking up nasty butts...ewww.  I've told folks that if I'm ever told I have 2 months to live, I'll start again!  What keeps me from smoking again, is having to quit again!
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11/09
How are you?  I am better everyday but sleep is still an issue. I should try melatonin.  Does that reallly help?  How much do you take?
Be well.
Jane
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11/09
I never took the ER properly - I chewed it - so now that I am trying to taper - it is making me extremely tired.  I may start taking it closer to bed time - as late as I can hold out.
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11/09
Just a quick note to say hi!
I am making the rounds this morning checking in.  How are you?  I am much better but not quite 100%.  My stomach is still problematic and I get up to early.  Other than that, the busier I am the better.
Jane
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11/09
I am glad to hear that your depression is lifting .
I am on effexor - but antidepressants are also really tough to get off - so I am waiting until I am finished my tram taper - give my body a chance to regulate.  To do both at once is a double wammy SSRI wise - depression wise - so be careful.
really glad to hear that you are starting to enjoy some things
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11/09
Can really relate to your post about depression. Me too to all of your post. It is the biggest challenge.
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11/09
Sometimes when we start to make changes in our lives we become impatient - and all of a sudden we want it all to change.  I also know that a career change will be in my future - but for now - all I can focus on is my recovery - getting off this drug, getting my body and brain working well again - and then I will start to take the next step.  
Patience - if we move to fast - we can undo the progress we have made.  Maybe there is some other way to find that fullfillment right now - a hobby?  I have taken up photography - basically just long walks with my camera.  I am also trying to do a few small things around the house.  Something that may bring you pleasure.
Treat yourself gently - good things will come.
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11/09
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Good to hear from you. I like your mood and hope you keep feeling good:)
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11/09
Just a quick note to say hi!
I admire those wh can work going through this withdrawl.  I went from 20 trams to none 2 days ago.  I just kep thinking that this will pass, time will pas by and i won't have to ever feel this wat again!  I can't help to feel that I have been so selfish to my family as it was more importat to feel numb to everything and/or high.  I HATE TRAMADOL and wish they would make this a scheduled drug.  I get calls on my cell phone from the drog stores on line saying "We are ready to ship your order".  Not to mention the 8 e-mails I get everyday about this!  Good luck everyone!
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11/09
Just a quick note to say hi!In Canada these amino acids are not allowed because the FDA considers them drugs and I do not have a lot of experience with gaba.I do know it is the "downer"brain chemical and all benzos  act on gaba receptors.I have read about people having good success with them but have no personal and direct knowledge.We did have a throat lozenge to quit smoking that contained passion flower and the govt pulled it off because people were getting dizzy and weird feelings.The passion flower extract had an effect much like zyban the drug to quit smoking.One of our employees hub took the lozenge and was in hospital with palpitations etc.Turned out to be the lozenge causing it.I know others have tried tryptophan,tyrosine,gaba etc,but they are not available legally here yet.
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11/09
Continued.... he wouldn't let me explain it to him either. Our glorious leader made him calm down. That's the one and only time anyone in a meeting got that mad at me.
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11/09
Pretty sure you can talk about it with people in AA. You could say....."I gotta get this off my chest......I am having an issue with Tramadol....didn't think I could get hooked at first but...."  

Ya never know there might be some people who could relate.

I've said things in meetings that upset people. I just let it slide. Some people don't have an open mind and some don't really hear what you are saying.

Several years ago I was having some serious emotional issues and I wanted but I didn't. During that time I went to a meeting and the topic was "why are you grateful for AA"? Came to my turn. I said AA has kept me from drinking again. I have been wanting to drink again, but AA has given me the skills to not drink." This younger guy flipped out at me. started yelling at me.  Crazy
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11/09
I really disliked NA. I went a few times way back when. People were too uptight and rigid. I was trying to find another group in Tennessee when I lived in a rural area there. NA was the only meeting that fit into my schedule when I was at home.

Had another friend who had drug issues and went to NA> He really didn't like it either. But liked AA.
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11/09
Looking at your message again.

Tramadol was a bit deceptive. Didn't think I was gonna get hooked but did.

If you have been going to the same group for the majority of the time you have the right too.

Reminds me....I have been to several meetings where all these people talk about how addicted they are to coffee now. Nobody slammed them. It's all part of a recovery process.

There is no failure if you are willing to work at being straight.

love ya
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11/09
In most AA meetings they let you talk about your drug issues too. Slip-ups with other addictive drugs beside alcohol.
Yet I have been at meetings where they really don't want people to talk about anything but alcohol. Which I think is very strange. It's all interconnected. Part of the addicted personality.

there are allot of times in AA where I don't talk. I listen. I always get helped. Someone has something I can relate to.Always.

AA is a place of freedom for us. At least that is what it was set up for.
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11/09
I do advocate AA. The one thing allot of people don't understand is that some groups just don't work for some people. I have been to several through out the world and I have been to some meetings that were not for me. Then there were those ones that turned me totally around and pointed me in the right direction.Tya gotta find the one that is right for you. The one that just doesn't make you feel warm and fuzzy , but the one that hits you in your being.The mind of an addict is unlike any other. It's amazing how smart most of us are. Then we turn around and do the STOOPIDious thing!! LOL!

As for others....Bouncing your thoughts and feelings off of others is the way to go. It's amazing how similar we are as human beings.

I seriously advocate talking with people about everything.
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11/09
Just a quick note to say hi!
I am a bit confused with this website.  What thread did I post on and how in thw future should I log on?
Thanks and good luck this week!

Jane
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11/09
Would be interested to know if the psychiatrist was useful?    I have seen one a few times recently. Found him very patronising and certainly didn't present anything I couldn't work out for myself. Because I was addicted - he thought I didn't have a brain. I usually came out steaming!!!!
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334144 tn?1423244671
11/09
Just a quick note to say hi! got your email but couldnt reply cuz my internet at home is down so i have to text everything on my phone.  hope your taper is going well. i am good but will probably call in again 2mara as i have a low grade fever and filthy house lol.....habe a good nigjt. will post again tomara.
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11/09
Jenny,
You are doing well - I am doing a slower taper than you - but I have been prescribed  extended release for years - problem is I chewed them.  The do work okay for me - so hopefully it will go gently for you.
Hang in there.
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10/09
Just a quick note to say hi! Hey Girl.  I am severely sweaty and ready for the immodium.  i should have gone to work to take my mnind off of the trams, but live and learn.  My house is horrible, but I cannot find any motivation to do anything about it.  I know you are out of town.  Have a great weekend.  Post if you can.  I will be on, if not by computer, then by my phone.
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10/09
I am glad your mom is helping you.  My parents and hubby knew I was on the trams back when I had a seizure years ago, but I cannot bear to tell them.  Im afraid my hibby would leave me and take my daughter with him and I will not let that happen.  Honestly he would probably stick by me, but I am too chicken to tell him how much debt we are in because of ordering this poison off the internet. Plus I just dont remember who I am anymore.  I dont like the person that I've become.  I want to be the best mommy I can be.
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334144 tn?1423244671
10/09
Just a quick note to say hi! What is even weirder is that my name is Jenny too!!!??I have taken all of the pills I had set aside for today which O think was 16? But I had a little bit of miniwithdrawal, so I may have to go cold turkey, which will suck.  I dont want to miss trick or treating, but I dont want to order any more trams either.  I was 28 when I had my little one.  They are the greatest.  Good luck.  Maybe we can be taper buddies.
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10/09
Thank you ! -scotty
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