That is ok, 9 months ago and I was in the exact same place. I would collapse on the ground and just start crying and I hated it when my hubby would touch. The worse was crying everytime my hubby and I had intercourse and then I cried when I got my first af - I basically cried for about 8 weeks. It is all completely natural to be so upset. I was fortunate enough to take photos of my little man so every now and then I look at how precious he was. I know some people may not agree with it but I definately needed that in order for myself to move on. I still think about my little man and it has been 9 months and 1 week since I lost him. To be honest I don't think the pain ever goes away I just think you find better ways to handle it. Im thinking of you
You're in my thoughts all the time, but especially today.
I hope the pain starts to ease soon!!! I know how hard it is but you will get there. Just remember to cry when you want to and be angry when you want because that is how you get through those dark days.
So sorry for your loss :( You have found a great community to join to help support you in your grieving and healing process :)