How is your Mom now?
In December 2012 my husband died following reconstructive surgery and rehab. He'd complained since heart surgery in 2011 that his sternum wasn't right. It separated leaving him near death because this seriously affected his ability to breath properly. Had I any idea that this could happen and nothing could be done, I would have considered hospice for a better quality of life. I presently have the FL DOH investigating the matter.
I love you. You make me complete. I adore you and hope you will allow me to go on loving you always.
I don't know why you think I want out? That is not true. I very much want to go on loving you. There is no hesitation with that feeling at all. I love you always. I am dealing with a lot on the inside and trying to learn how to cope with it. My emotional state is very inconsistent. That is all, nothing more. I love you and want you.
I was a little worried about you today, but thought it best to give you some space so you could rest. I am happy you did rest, but sad we never really talked much? I came to see you instead of watching football, but I perceived you wanted your bed so I backed off. I want to talk, but sometimes I am not sure how to get it going?
I am always thinking about you! I am calm, collective, and complete when we are together as one. The thought of losing your love cripples me emotionally and physically. That is my greatest fear, losing you. I love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you showing you I can be a better husband by loving and trusting you. I want that with you. I am trying so hard, especially after today. It broke my heart seeing you cry because of my words and thoughts. I love you so much baby!