It is hard to hold onto a relationship, the main reason I have been able to is that my husband is an angel! He loves unconditionally, and understands that everything I do is not intentional to hurt him. I know that I can be a hard girl to love,
but just by him staying by me, it gives me the strength to try harder, and look deeper into myself, and do the difficult work it takes to live with this terrible disease. Slowly, with technics that I have found out that work for me, I can calm myself down. Taking a shower with a special scent I love, like grapefruit or citrus, cuddling with a soft blanket, or eating a small piece of my favorite food. It is not always possible to do this, but when I can, it seems to work. Music helps as well. The 5 scenses!