"So I need to talk to someone about this. From what I've read on the internet the things that I've done in my childhood are normal and I shouldn't blame myself for them. However, my OCD and anxiety wont allow myself to forgive myself.
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Welcome to Medhelp and the Abuse Community. I'm so glad you found the forum and hope to see you sticking around and making friends here. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Liz