Hello Price, Hoping you are doing alright and that you are finding new friends and things to keep you busy with. Never forget that good surprises may be just beyond today and while it seems trite, it is usually true that it seems darkest before the new dawn.
My experience with NA has not been great. It was a different feeling, and I didn't relate as well to the group. Again - it could have just been the group - it took me a while to find one I was comfortable with.
What ever you try - if it is not a fit for you - try other meetings. Once you find the right fit - you will love the support and the friendships you will make. Great to have a place you can be totally honest - everyone is at all different stages of recovery
Hang in there
You are MY support as well. I have been battling the idea of just having a few Trams. around the house in case I REALLY needed them one day - say for my back pain flare-up or if I got the flu or something. Just in case I needed something a bit stronger than Advil. I know these are the Trama-voices - and right now (at Day 18) they are pretty strong.
But I KNOW that is just BS. We are all in this for life and I wish it were easier, but the truth is...it's not. The only thing we have is our strength and each other.
You inspired me to change my thinking, KEEP reading these posts for inspiration, and NEVER give up.