HELLO...I'm 44LOU, I just started today and saw this forum. First off, there are people who care! On 2/3 you took a huge step to help yourself! Pat your back!! We all suffer from mental disease and it's not fun - but what you did was a great thing - do not get discouraged! Getting help is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength : ) Take one day at a time! Be your own super hero in your story. Nice meeting you Goodbipolar!! I know you'll rock this!