You might want to check whether you have high cortisol (produced by the adrenal gland). This can make for anxiety, jumpiness and insomnia. I always look first for a physical cause for what may appear to be mental or emotional problems. I learned this from grim experience.
Holy c r a p, you sound just like me...but I haven't been to prison...wow!
Thank you for the repsonse. Can you tell me how I check my "cortisol"? Is it a simple blood test or? And do you know what the treatment is for this?
I'd be THRILLED to find out there is a physical cause for my craziness, LOL. Its funny that nobody has mentioned this before.
Count yourself lucky that you haven't! The really crappy part is that I feel like my past (substance abuse and subsequently prison) is preventing my doctor from addressing the issue's that probably caused me to self medicate in the first place. Don't get me wrong though, I take responsibilty for my actions, and obviously I made some seriously bad choices. I don't want to give the impression that I'm making excuses. But I'm getting to the point that I'm ready to find another doctor, and NOT be honest about my past this time. I thought I was doing the right thing when I disclosed my history to my doc very honestly, but maybe not.
Lots of good comments by all above. And yes, there are several things that can cause ADHD symptoms that are not ADHD - and they should be checked out! But your symptoms are also classic ADHD as well as your self medication reactions. To get a feeling for what adult ADHD is like check out the link and the advice posted here.
You ask about resources for people like you. My first question would be - what kind of a doctor is your doctor? I have seen too many stories in my 3 or so years on this forum where the doctor didn't have a clue. Also (I guess), along with the first question - do you have the insurance to make a choice in doctors? We can give lots of online resources, but a good doc, is best!
Magnesium deficiency has been connected with violence, additictions, ADHD, OCD, depression, insomnia, among many other conditions.
PubMed states: "Magnesium supply decreased the intensity of morphine-induced physical drug dependence. In heroin addicts, the plasma magnesium concentration is decreased."
Violence and nutrition: http://www.parenting-healthy-children.com/children-nutrition.html
Here's a review on Magnesium Taurate from Amazon's website:
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Magnesium Reduces Drug Dependency, Cocaine Cravings
The below article discusses using Magnesium to wean off an addiction to coffee:
"Magnesium is the body's natural energizer. It balances muscle and nerve tension caused by calcium. It also relaxes the bowel, so it has its own gentle laxative effect. Magnesium is calming because it neutralizes adrenalin surges, which prevents anxiety and treats insomnia...." http://foreign.peacefmonline.com/health/201008/73448.php
George Eby has a fantastic webpage about his recovery from depression, using Magnesium Taurate.
The best forms are: Taurate, Glycinate, and Citrate. Many forms out there are either ineffective and/or unsafe to use.
The medical site "UpToDate" says:
Dosage: RDI: 400mg/day; ODA: 400-600mg/day
Toxic dose: Single doses, equal or more than, 1000mg may cause diarrhea; use caution in renal impairment...
May alter glucose regulation...
Recommends coordinating with healthcare provider if you have renal or diabetic conditions.