I'm 25 and have had panic attacks since I was little-I am starting to wonder if I also have ADHD or if they are connected somehow. I cannot seem to remember things, or focus on what is going on. I feel like I have the brain of an eighty year old-it's always been like this, but I am so tired of causing frustration in my relationship because I'm apparently not listening. I really do care and don't mean to be like that! Everything in my life seems half done, I cannot stand being still, my mind feels like it never shuts off, and ever since I opened my own business a few months ago, it feels like everything has gotten worse. Maybe I'm just stressed. IDK. I can't seem to go to my boyfriend's work parties and focus on conversations I'm supposed to have with people, and it is really embarrassing. I just feel so overwhelmed with all of the people and the noise and I know I probably look dumb. I try making myself focus but it's a little hard. The crazy thing is, that I have no trouble at all working on music-which is what I do, I'm a musician and really love being a pianist and a music teacher-so I don't get that. I have a family history of anxiety, adhd, depression, and other mental disorders, which kind of freaks me out that I might have ADHD or something else, although I didn't too bad in school and wasn't a problem kid. I'm not currently taking medication-I could not deal with the side effects of the ones I tried for anxiety and so far I haven't gone back to try something else. I've never done drugs in my life and don't drink often, so I'm not sure why I would be like this. I'm wondering if anyone else deals with this as well as panic attacks, and what I should do?