I am an ADHD coach and SOME of what you describe sounds like classic ADD. Here's what those things would be:
-- disorganization, boredom (seeking excitement), being figity, zoning out/trouble focusing, being impulsive ("no mouth filter"), hyper sensive, lacking motivation, hyperfocusing (focusing on one thing and blocking out everything else), and memory issues.
You could have ADHD plus something else, or another diagnosis altogether. I recommend that you find an excellent psychologist with a background in ADHD, bi-polar, depression, and OCD, to do a very thorough neuro-psych evaluation.
Here's where what you describe is NOT classic ADHD:
-- Compulsions, severe mood swings that change even hourly.
Depression and anxiety often co-exist with ADHD (untreated ADHD can lead to both as life easily feels very overwhelming).
The following that you describe can be ADHD, but they can also be symptoms of other issues (depending upon severity): racing/crammed thoughts, mental chaos, being easily stressed.
The compulsive things you mentioned (touching wood, etc.) do not sound to me like ADHD, but more like OCD. Of course, only a comprehensive psychological exam would be able to tease these all out. Not caring about others' feelings, being numb, defensiveness, and having an urge to run away -- these are not classic ADHD symptoms and may be coming from something else.
I am suggesting that many of your symptoms very much sound like ADHD, and it sounds like you have other things going on as well. I highly recommend seeking out a reputable therapist who can do a comprehensive exam to tease out the various things going on.
I also recommend reading online anything you can find about ADHD, Bi-Polar II, OCD, and depression, and becoming familiar with those and see if there are any things that resonate for you. The OCD Foundation has a great website with a lot of information. Totallyadd.com/ is a good site on ADHD issues, and Ari Tuckman's podcasts (you can google them) are great. Best wishes!!!
I hope you went to a psychiatrist to be diagnosed. If not, then go for a second opinion. However, most bipolar patients are in denial about their condition. Just talk with your doctor and discuss your concerns. Also, bipolar disorder often has comorbid conditions, so you could have both.
Thank you both for your replies.
ADHDcoach, I'll definately check out that website and I appreciate your response. I have read up a bit on bp2 and while a lot of the symptoms relate to me, some don't. When I read about adult adhd, the majority of the symptoms relate to me (well it appears to anyway).
Coffees, yes I've been diagnosed 2 times by 2 different psychiatrists and it suggested by my gp. I have a psych appointment oh feb 1, I'm very much looking forward to it. If I haven't got it, I just would like my meds fixed. If i have then I would like to be on something that will make me feel better.
Thanks again guys