I have been taking vyvance for several years. I feel that my does was too high as a child but now I am 21 (female) and have come down to 30mg. When I am on it I feel great though I do experience some side effects (obsessiveness, loss of apetite, no sex drive, not caring about relationships, overly pumped about my work and nothing else, tendency to want to either be alone and silent or chat someones ear off, relief of constipation, ect) However, it is the person that I am when I do not take the medication that is beginning to scare me.
Ive tried to cut back and take it less frequently but the swings between who I am on and off are so abrupt. I dont know where I leave off and it begins. When I don't take it I experience extreme withdrawl such as uselessness, depression, fatigue, fidgety, poor memory, getting caught on words and repeating them, excruciatingly shameful eating habits, never getting full, can't keep track of any idea or object, ect. Its like food is the only slice of pleasure I can access and I have no control over how much or when to stop. It is getting out of control so I run from myself by taking the medication but then feel guilty about the long term effects and the dependence. I am not comfortable having this external source of personal power being the difference between a good day and a bad day but I don't know what to do. I feel very alone and afraid.
This anxiety tonight was triggered because I watched a video for Binge Eating Disorder that advertised Vyvance as an appropriate treatment for BED. I think it caused mine?
Does anyone have any thoughts or idea? Perhaps experiencing something similar?