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Your first post?

I thought it would be interesting to see your first post on Medhelp. You can find it in the watch list on the left of your home page. It shows all your posts that you made. So many of us have grown since I have been here and we learn from each other. I thinks it's amazing to see people start out with lil hope and then get clean and become happy again. Here is my first post ever on MH, it was the first time I got clean for a month and was so proud, lol. Please share your first post or one of them, I would like to read it:)

one month clean today
by gizzy32, Dec 10, 2007 09:54AM
i have been clean for exactly one month today. for the past five years, i have been addicted to cocaine and it brought me down to a place i never knew existed. i went through spells of using every day for weeks at a time until my body would shut down. no matter how bad things got, or how sick i became i could not quit, until i asked for help. i started attending na meetings and they gave me hope. since ive been clean, ive been having so many nightmares, and i was wondering if this is a part of recovery?

Avisg was the first to respond to me, avis, I think you had 90 days clean here? Hope you don't mind me putting this up:)

by avisg, Dec 10, 2007 10:12AM
To: gizzy
Good job , be very pourd of yourself for your 30 days .....keep up the meetings they will really help.
I dont tend to get nightmare as much as i still even after over 90 days still have drug dreams i had one last night .I really wish they would go away but i am sure with time they will.
avis
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1378071 tn?1313420821
tho i still get my urges and the last time i used was back in april.. i could taste the powder in my mouth this morning but nothing was numb... i took the mistake by taking a vicodin over the weekend i wanted to crush it up and snort it but i had no utinsles... i still smoke to get my high...


(i forgot my password to this account V)
Pure cocaine
whoknew87, May 19, 2010 05:13PM
Maybe there are others out here like me?! my preferred drug is cocaine! I feel like no one can control me i do want i want when i want to, Im mellowed out! Im not completely addicted.. I get the urge to do it, but i know it will ruin my relationship. even tho when i first done it I was with my boyfriend (he was there and doing it with me), now he wants nothing to do with it!!! But I see nothing wrong with it! Grant-it yes after doing 3 grams in 1 night, he didnt know I did it and I didnt want to tell him,. but a day later after coming down from my high I ended up kicking him out (over a year ago, we are back together) bcz of lil petty crap! what happened after being addicted for 3-5months i felt great then this happened now?!?!
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563594 tn?1309583132
Yeah I noticed that my post went from me taking 7-15 norcos, to smoking almost 250mgs of Oxy Contin a day.... I should've just quit while I was ahead. Geesh! Thank god I'm clean now :) Congrats to you as well!
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710423 tn?1271161074
i was only at 10 to 12 per day back then!!! holy moley!!! I could have stopped. I made it to 40 before I finally hit bottom. This was a great idea gizzy!
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710423 tn?1271161074
Relapsed, and as promised...it is much worse now
by Amaryllis1974, Dec 14, 2008 12:02PM
Hi all.
I am a drug addict who knows quite well what I have gotten myself into. I have been in and out of the rooms of 12 step programs since 2000. I have never truly stayed clean for more than a handful of months. But now it seems I am taking not as many as before, but life has gotten much more out of control. I have lost a job that I pined for, I have lost my soul, I believe. I have no want for anything in this world except my own selfish "feeling good"...the pills stopped working long ago so now I have moved on to cheating lying and shopping in excess...all of it. I want off of these pills...i know what the pain is like and i am terrified. I weaned myself before but had help...I am so afraid to tell anyone i am using again. I am broke because of these 5 dollar pills...I suppose I am here for someone to tell me in no uncertain terms to get off my arse and do it...i just need reminders. I dont want to go to a meeting...i dont want to open up to my loved ones. i dont want to do it...but i fear i have no choice. I have a handful left....I can wean for a bit...but i need a schedule or something...am only taking approx. 10 Lortabs a day...Which is petty compared to some on here; but I assure you my disease has taken everything from me........more than ever. Thanks so much.
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563594 tn?1309583132
by the way, found that post on page 107, Lol, I saw Sophie had hers on page 107, we must both be at almost 1000 posts now :)
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563594 tn?1309583132
found it... not as panicked as I thought, since I was still using, my posts following my first post got much more panicked and anxious:

Please help me taper off NORCO
by Mandapanda17, Jul 17, 2008 12:03AM
Tags: Vicodin, withrawal, taper, cold turkey, Addiction, help addiction
I need some advice on what to do about my norco addiction. I have been taking anywhere from 7-15 pills a day for about 4 years. Originally due to 2 shoulder surgeries. I'm now healed from the surgeries and still addicted to the pain meds. Mentally and physically. I am very afraid of the withdrawals, been through them before 3 times and each was just as painful. Last year I was clean for 65 days and then had to have another surgery. I have no choice and must continue to go to work 3 days a week, which isn't bad, but can still be REALLY overwhelming when going through withdrawals from opiates. Thought about going to see a suboxone doc, but I realize that it could put me in this same situation when I discontinue those meds as well. Any advice on how to taper off this addiction would be very helpful to me. OR should I just cold turkey it again? Should I taper? if so, how? I do have help from my fiance and my roomate to hold and dispense pills for me if necessary (which it probably is). Thanks to anyone with some words of wisdom :)
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563594 tn?1309583132
wow Chris, this is an interesting one..I'm going searching for my first post now, hopefully I can pull it up & post it. I was such a panicked mess when I started posting way back when... here goes the search!
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186166 tn?1385259382
ggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...mine wont go back that far.  i need a page two and there is not one.
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711224 tn?1344771687
OMG Gizzy I had to go thru 107 pages!!!

there it goes:


oxazepam
by SophieShine, Dec 17, 2008 11:07AM
I'm busy kicking off oxazepam. It's hell.
I've been taking it for 9 years now (200mg/day). I'm down to 40mg but it starts to be really hard to say no to a second take in the middle of the nite when you slept 3 hours.
I kicked off prozac already, but this is another ball game. I have a very bad sweating issue. As soon as I know Im gonna have to face the world for some reason (even fun), I start to sweat like crazy. my emotions are unmanageable, a roller coaster. Life seems so complicated and puzzling. Is it all worth it? when I put all the issues that I went thru, I really ask myself how I made it so far. getting 40 was a shock to me. Not because of the age but I never thought I'd deal with all that happened to me thru the years. I'm thinking about suicide a lot (again).
Can somebody out there give me some guidance, some help or a pep post?

I had answers from ppl that are not around anymore unfortunately...
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My first post, 16 days clean (now day 80!)


Sep 30, 2009 09:59AM

Many withdrawals, many years on all types of pain meds. But this time withdrawing after 2 years on 300mg codeine a day. Now on day 16 and have strange afternoon symptoms starting at about 1:00 pm. Anxiety attacks, chills and sweats, dead depression, usually passes by 10:00 except for restlessness (hate hate hate) in bed. Did not have the early opiate like withdrawal the first 4 days like with oxy etc. I can't tell normal me from withdrawal me from stoned me. I have been playing this game a long long time. Has anyone had similar lagging withdrawal symptoms? Or am I just going quietly crazy?
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442658 tn?1563386491
my gosh i remember this like yesterday....wow i remember all that coffee drinkin i did...what a mistake!
please help
by merrymaria, Jul 06, 2008 05:28PM
hi.  in 30 minutes I will be 48 hours clean from opiates.  Many people said the worst is yet to come.  I been using for about 4 years gradually increasing till I was up to 10 a day.  I just did ct.  i hurt, cry my eyes out, not hungry. no sleep last night and feel so empty like how am I going to deal with this.  I have taken my two week vacation to w/d from these damn pills but ppl tell me you ll be sick for months.  I have no health insurance and no extra cash for rehab or detox.  I just been taking asprin and drinking coffee. Can someone guide me as to what to expect in the next days.  This is my second try to quit and im going to beat this hell.  Never gone 2 days.  anyone please help
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495284 tn?1333894042
go into your home page and click on the watch list which is on the left hand side of the page.  That will be quicker and they are the threads you have started so it is easy to find......
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401095 tn?1351391770
How can u go back there quickly//to the first post when u have been posting a long time...i found i hqd to keep clicking and clicking to get back there as i have been here almost 2 yrs...u gotta a shotcut giz?
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983679 tn?1276833336
here is mine.....this was my first post...at the time of this post i was not feeling to terrible but it got BAD:
when will my loratab withdrawels go away
by leeisgettingclean, Jul 27, 2009 04:46PM
Tags: loratabs addiction, withdrawel, loratab

i took my last loratabs the day before yesterday. So today is day two of nothing for me. I was a heavy user of 15 to 20 loratab 10"s  a day for past 2.5 years. But most oddly i really do not feel bad. Only thing i noticed was some problem sleeping last night along with  tosing and turning and not being able to get confortable and maybe being a little ill to the ones i love : (....however i actually got up at 4:30 yesterday morning(day one with nothing for 2.5 years and worked a 12 hour shift as a nurse aid) . I am just wondering is the worst to come? any one that get give me answers will be highly praised!!
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Ok heres mine.Reading it I can still feel the pain.WOW I can't believe I made it this far.Could have never done it without all of you.


I am seven days off of a 25mg. per day dose of methodone. The first couple of days were not that bad. I was on it for over a year comming off a vicodin addiction. Today I feel so sick,I have no energy,I can't sleep,I am so depressed. I need some home remedies if you will ,to try to combat some of  the withdrawl. I feel very scared when I read some of the comments and hear people still do not feel good after three or four months.If i had to do it all over again I would have never gotten on methodone to begin with all I did was mask my addiction and apparently created a harder,longer lasting detox for myself. In my opinion they ought to outlaw the use of methodone to treat opiate addictions all methodine does is switch your addiction. I started a vicodin addict and became a methodone addict.
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Thanks for sharing these ladies. Interesting to read and we come come so far. I never want to nor will I go back to that point. Thanks again:)

Congrats on 2 days clean MP and your 20 days clean avis, lol.
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199177 tn?1490498534
COMMUNITY LEADER
Ok this was one I made in sept  2007 about 20 days after I got clean for the 2nd time I found the forum in aprial 2007 but I have over 8000 posts so this is as good as it gets.
I was still dealing with alot of pain at this point

Everyone,
OK i am going to whine for a minute .I have had a headache the last three days it is driving me nuts ,along with tingling lips and dizzy spells.(TMJ) . It ***** I had gone a few weeks without the dizzy spells but i guess they are backkkkkkk. OK my second is over .I hope everyone has a good day .
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495284 tn?1333894042

going on day 2
by dominosarah [This user is a Community Leader for this forum] , Apr 30, 2008 12:55PM
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Hi  here it goes.  I am a 46 yr. old female who is addicted to Vicoprofen.  I have been battling the demons in my head telling me you have to stop doing this.  This is day 2 of going Cold Turkey.  My life seems so out of control.  I eat sleep and breathe those pills.  It is driving me nuts as i know i dont want to be like this anymore.  My relationships are suffering, lying to my kids about my addiction, spending enormous amounts of money on docs and pills which i dont have.  The last day i took them was Monday and i really want this to work.  I had a dr. appt on Friday to get refills again and i cancelled.  I feel real strange like how will i be able to enjoy life not taking these awful things.  I have been reading all the info on withdrawal and i have to tell you i am scared but this is day 2 and i have to start somewheres.  I am in this for the long haul.  I need my life back.  Any suggestions on getting thru these next week(s) of withdrawal will be helpful.  At the time i have some chills and not alot of ambition and NO appetite.  Thank you taking the time to read this.
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1032715 tn?1315984234
To: Realization
I'm a 47 year old woman who has been taking an analgesic / calmative for approx: 20 years. They contain 500mg paracetamol,10mg codeine and 5.1mg doxylamine succinate.I live in Australia and this medication is available over the counter no prescription needed.Along with this I am also been treated for depression & panic attacks with zoloft / sertraline hydrochloride 200mg per day. My doctor had no idea about my codeine addiction,I also used alcohol daily 3 to 4 bottles of spirits a week.                      My reason for doing this to my body was simple I was sexually abused by my brother who was 10 years older than me between the ages of 7 to 10, 20 years ago I told my parents and it was like it was swept under the carpet, I had to choose if I wanted a relationship with my parents or not,I did. So to deal with everything the alcohol started first as a 14 year old it made me forget what had happened as a child, as I got older and had my own children it brought all the memories back. I was desparate to have a girl first I did not want my daughter to have an older brother,I did have a girl first then my son, As the years went on the alcohol wasn't working as well at fogging my brain.I was given codeine for a migraine and that was my start at self medicating by the time I was 47 I was taking 18 to 24 codeine per day plus the alcohol and anti-depressants, now I could sleep. Two weeks ogo I had a blood test my liver has been damaged, hopefully it can be repaired. So now I have to give up the codeine and alcohol which have been a constant in my life for a long time, my doctor is helping me seeing me on a weekly basis and using low doses of diazapam/valium to help with the withdrawal symptoms it is now 2 weeks since I touched either alcohol or codeine it's hard but I'm looking forward to a life without them and enjoying good times with my grandson.
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