I had used heroin for 7 years and nıw I'm clean for 1 year and I'm going through a deep depression. I stopped seeing my doctor and taking antidepressants for 7 months, I only attend to NA meetings and work the NA steps, I don't trust any of the doctors and medication, I have been hospitilized many times and NA has been the only place that I had stopped my using.
But now, I am in such a depression, nothing negative is really happening in my life but I have no willingness to do something, I just cry, feel a deep pain and sorrow, I got isolated, don't want to go to meetings, on't want to share, don't want to be in touch with life. I had seen a doctor last week and he suggested me to use anti depressant, but I think it will be again a way to escape how I feel, to change my mood, I really do not want to escape from my feelings anymore, but it is so hard to continue like this. Please help me with your comments on using anti depressant.