abuse

[windowman42]

I can remember being a bad person.But after compliants and request for change by my former girfriend ,I progressively changed.Now so much -that my former life is gone.Evrything I do is for her or her family and somehow I never am left time for mine.I isolate my self from her whenI can-I have totatlly emersed myself in work.I faer the public and walking around outside of work I feel lost.I tried dating but cannot relax , I feel inadiquate.I feel completely at a loss as I used to ***** in traffic now hardly out of fear=it causes war when I do and everything stops ie nothing gets done.

I should point out -I am living seperated from this person but feel I cannot affford a place on my own. We are supposed be renovating to sell-always something being added.Now I feel like I can do nothing right.I am told I am stupid ,retarded-crazy,not a man.

In spite of all this _ she drags me everywhere-like I am her boy friend-but no perks .

I think I know the answer to this but-I need resorces -bad _I think I am losing grip.

I feell like I cannot leave her -she has no one -dying parents and she was abused as a child( not by family)

your thoughts- I have no money so please do not ask-I support two kids from a previous marriage( wife decided to cheat with mt best friend.( yeah just keeps getting bettter.

[margypops]

I think you know the answer is to leave ,could it be you are from another culture and the beliefs are differant from here,it was good you changed yourself fom that 'bad' person, you dont have to go everywhere with her, if you say No and mean it, when she calls you names walk away do not listen to them. It is in your hands how you live your life,you are in control. Good Luck

[windowman42]

sure

[RockRose]

Windowman,  maybe you could try to post again tomorrow morning?  I can't tell what you're saying.