Wow, girlfriend! You have quite a story!! Let me know when you are speaking at a meeting! I know about the obsession and compulsion being lifted by a power greater than ourselves. See, I think some think "Ive been praying, it hasnt been lifted". Well, it takes more than praying doesnt it Cherokee? It takes FOOTWORK, which is exactly what you are doing and that is wonderful. You are making it to 2 meetings a day and from how you sound, are probably working a program (steps and that). If we do these things for ourselves, that power greater than ourselves, whatever it/he/she is, will do for us what we cant do for ourselves which is lift that obsession and compulsion (one is like constant cravings and gets us to use again (obsession) and the other keeps us using as if on automatic pilot even when we dont want to (compulsion).
I had no desire to use for many years before beginning pain pills and it was through working a good program.
You have been through the worse kind of pain a parent could experience and you are clean.
You are truly an inspiration.
tzt
Thank you so much and i truly got some wonderful things from your post. life is good today. i just came back from a meeting where i am secretary. Service, working with a sponsor, making coffee, pouring someone a cup of coffee, giving someone a ride to a meeting has all been such an instrumental part of my recovery. Realizing i know only a little keeps me humble (most of the time) and keeps me coming back so i can keep learning more. I was told that sobriety is a journey and not a destination. I have the most wonderful friend in AA, his name is **** C. and he is 92 and has 58 years of sobriety. He still goes to a meeting everyday and brings us all such hope and happiness. If you ever hear that he is speaking i would highly recommend you go hear him. And the cutest part of it all is that he still loves the women. He always tells me that maybe one day he will catch one but he is not sure if he would remember what to do if he did. Anyway, life is good today. And always remember, serenity is not freedom from the storm but peace amid the storm.
Deb
I love that saying about peace in the storm, thats awesome. Id love to hear your friend speak! He sounds like a real sweetheart. And you too when you get to that stage. All those things you are doing, coffee maker, sponsorship, rides, are SO huge in early recovery, as you stated. You are doing an awesome job and I hear the hope in you writing, I know if I saw you you would have that light in your eyes, I just feel it.
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tzt
Oh, are you Cherokee? Im Choctaw and Chickasaw.
Yes i am 1/3 cherokee. its so funny you say that about my eyes, i had one of my friends say to day that he is so sick of looking at how happy i am all the time, and so of course i asked him to lead the meeting. he thanked afterwards.
Deb
What a great story. Its offers hope for all of us. I think if I could just stay on the bandwagon long ago that I will realize what true happiness is as well. Good luck to you and to your friend.
Very inspirational story. I cannot thank you enough for sharing this. I also want to say that I am sorry about your daughter and your lifes struggle, and congrats on your decision to stay clean.
Your story brings allot of new hope to my day!
Thank you again.
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Tracy
You have made my thoughts for today change.