Ok sorry if i ramble ahead of time but i feel like i've had a revelation today!! So as i'm picking up my 11 yr old daughter today & as soon as she get's in the car she changes the channel to her pop crap ( i'd much rather be listening to my 80's hair bands & rock personally) but needless to say this always happens. So instead of trying to embarrass her by headbanging or fist pumping to her music i just drive, a song came on that i've heard many many times before, heck i even knew all the words but this time hearing it & singing it with her was very different, by the end of the song i had tears falling out of my eyes ( good thing i had sunglasses on) If any of u going through this journey hasn't heard of the song i'm about to say i'd tell u to definitely youtube it, or maybe i'm just a nutty. The song is by Katy Perry called wide awake. I'm going to post some of the lyric's & see if u all get it, the versus r out of order i think but u will get the picture i think.
I'm wide awake, yea i was in the dark, i was falling hard, with an open heart
need nothing to complete myself, i'm born again, outta the lions den, i don't have to pretend
God knows i've tried seeing the bright side, but i'm not blind anymore
Chorus
Wish i knew then what i know now, wouldn't dive in wouldn't bow down, gravity hurts, you made it so sweet,until i woke up on the concrete, falling from cloud 9, crashing from the high.
Ok this is so totally my song!!! Almost to the tee of what i feel & who stinking knew it would be a pop song & not Bret Michaels singing it...lol sorry this is so long but i'am so happy to be feeling this way again & to be alive after my relapse. Hope everyone's enjoying the weekend! Love & prayers, Stacy