CK Journal

[MIKE805]

I thought I would make a journal about my recovery so everyone can see if they want to or not lol...  This is just a way of expressing myself.  Love peace and for the love of god stay clean...

Journal by CK

Monday August 13th-

A day after going on a coke bing I decided to go to my first N/A meeting.  At first I was a little sckepitcal about it.  I had invisioned one of Emiem's videos where he gets behind a podemn and tells his life in music video.

Well, it was completely different I was surronded by a group of chairs with all different kinds of people.  I usally get nervous about talking in front of a crowd but this time was different.   The two people to left of me told the group there story and then the group was quiet.  I said “is it my turn”  the person running it said if you want it to be.  I then relized it wasn't my turn and I didn't have to speak if I didn't want to.

But, I did anyway.  I felt calm and ready to give a glimpse of my life to these random people about my drug problem.  They were very warm and inviting.  I remember afterward, this young girl with curly blonde hair telling me that on her first meeting she couldn't mustard up a word.

Tuesday August 14th-

I told my dad I wanted to go to a N/A meeting again and he told me in a negative tone that he thought it was a waste of time and didn't want me to go.

Wednesday August 15th-

I woke up at 7pm going 24 hours without a cigarette.  I felt tired honery and not good.  I went up to my dad and said I was withdrawling and if I could have $10 to go buy some cigerettes and he gave me the money telling me that I would have to wake up tommorrow and work for him.

[akitagurl12]

i love reading back at my old posts and journal entries.  It serves as a powerful reminder of how hard detox was and how i never want to go through that again.  Keep moving forward!

[weaver71]

Yeah, if you keep journals in your addiction tracker or profile, you can refer people to it and it's all in one place that's easy to find. I think it's awesome  you want to share. Just a suggestion.

[laurel453]

Hi, Mike.... it doesn't matter what your father thinks, it matters that NA is being helpful to you ! :)

You might find that your personal page has journal entries, this way your journals won't get lost among the other posts. It is a good idea journaling, btw