Friends

[tzt2lady]

It is indeed a very sad time here on the forum.  We are all feeling the heaviness in our hearts for Mar and Hope.  Those of us who have had to say goodbye to a parent or loved one are reminded of the pain and we don't want Mar or Hope or anyone to feel that.  I feel very powerless but I do have the power to pray and thats what I am doing a lot of.

Being emotional already because of what our dear friends are goingn through, it brings tears to my eyes when I read Shelby's words saying how we can get through sad times together, as friends.  We are here for each other.  You all are some of the nicest, most real people I've ever met and yes, a lot can be observed in another person's written words.  Personalities, values, qualities, likes, dislikes, all come through loud and clear on this forum and I am so blessed to know you all.  You know who you are so I won't name names but I am so tempted to (I'd leave someone out unintentinally).

I guess I just want to say I am so honored to be a part of a group like we have.  We reallyknow what true friendship and support means.

hug
tzt

[road2recovery]

good nite, hope you get some rest...
god bless
R2R

[shelby74]

I am going to lay down guys, pray a lot and then hopefully sleep.  You are all in my heart and I love each one of you.  

big hug,

me

[shelby74]

Oh honey I wish I could have been there with you - we all do.  I feel your pain - I know it hurts.  I would do anything to take the pain away.  My heart aches for you guys - just tearing me apart that I cannot do more.

love you,

me

[road2recovery]

i am so sorry., there are no words anyone can say...i have never been in that situation, an dread the day..And no one can ever be mad at you for wanting pills...And you are right, it is only when you are ready..AND right now you are not..And that is ok...you have to deal with this the only way you know how...i am not sure what i would do in that situation, so i would never judge you...

i just want you to know i am here, and will be praying for you and your family..
I also beleive in God, and i think he will take care of you..and you be sure to take care of yourself..
God bless you hope, and i hope you get some rest...

[shelby74]

"Heaviness in our hearts" describes perfectly the way I am feeling right now.  It is not something I am going shy away from either.  I feel this way because I care about you guys so much -  but like tzt said I do feel powerless.  I have done lots of praying and will do a lot more.  It is what I have to offer right at this moment but I will do anything I can for any of those here in pain or someone who just needs to hear a kind word.  You guys have always been there for me throughout my recovery and I will never forget that.  Somewhere along the line I forgot what it was like to really care for someone - I won't make that mistake again.  

I am also honored to be a part of this wonderful group.  My prayer is that each of you will find recovery and peace in your hearts.

tzt you are truly an inspiration.  Thank you for being a part of this "group".  You mean so much to us.

hugs back,

me

[hopeless]

Hi everyone - I really don't feel like being here tonight, i am sorry! Just feeling a bit down and depressed today.

Just wanted to say hi to all of you, and let you know that i am thinking of each and everyone of you.

I spent some time with my dad today, and although he was smiling a bit, he is sitll in so much pain. While sitting there with him, i saw so many emotions he had, and it broke my heart. His facial expressions from all the pain, almost in some sort of way, made me have the pain too.

He goes tomorrow for a Catscan, so we will wait and see how far it has spread now. It is just about in his organs now, and we all know that when that happens they will begin to shut down - and then it will all be over!

Anyway, Thank all of you for everything. The prayers and support from all of you mean so much to me.

I wish i was in a better mood and felt like talking, but just don't tonight, Sorry!

I hope you all have a great nite and get a great nite sleep...You all deserve it!

I have never been one to deal with death - it just freaks me out! This is so hard, but i know i need to prepare myself. I am trying, and i truely believe in God, so i know when this time comes, he will be in GREAT hands. Just not going to be with me anymore or my mom. This is the hard part to except.

I am going to lay down, maybe tomorrow i can talk more...Would love to catch up with everyone.

PS - I know if i had some pills right now, i know for a fact i would take them. I hate saying this to all you, but it's the truth. I even tried talking my hubby into going to the ER and acting like he was in pain so i could get some, he said NO. Then i got pissed off at him, and i shouldn't have, he is just doing what is best for me. But still, i really don't think i am ready in my head to quit yet. So until that time comes, i have no idea what to do. All i know is i want some pills and will try to find some tomorrow. Please don't get mad at me, i just am not mentally ready yet i guess. So it will never work until i am..

Have a great nite guys

I love all you
xoxo

me -hope

[road2recovery]

i second that...Today was a real eye opener for some of us on here..just reading their stories..i know it did for me..Thanks for everyone sharing..Ths forum is better than ANY meeting i have ever been a part of..
Wish we all lived close and could get together..
hope and mary
Our prayers are with you at this difficult time for you both
R2R