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[lgreenup]

I take around 15 to 20 Soma a day, 2 20 mg oxy and 2 to 4 325mg Norco a day.  I'm a wife, mom and a serious drug addict.  I find a way to get the soma from other places.  I'm scared I need to quit now, I only have 18 Soma left, don't know what i'm going to do when they are out.  My husband is so hurt by my lying, he is trying but I'm not making the effort.  I need to, seeing my doctor and I feel I need to be honest with him.  I don't have time to take off work, I had brain surgery to fix an aneurysm over the summer but I have to find a way to do this.  Anyone with ideas. What do I tell my husband?  He can't understand this, I really don't eithe, like how did I let myself get so far gone.The Soma problem is out of control.  I don't want my boys seeing me like this and the tension anymore.  My dad lives on the street with a bad Meth habit, how do I dare judge him when I am doing all of this?

[lgreenup]

Thanks Calzy - I did run out a few weeks ago and went 4 days, I survived but I just couldn't stop.  You are so right, I need to want to do it and I DO, MY FAMILY NEEDS A MOM AND A WIFE, NOT A LAZY PERSON, WHO JUST SITS IN HER ROOM AFTER WORK.  Spoke with my husband at lunch, he knows how bad my habit is now.  He just wants me to hang in there, he is so wonderful after all my lies, I'm lucky and I need to remember why I'm doing this.  Do you feel the urges to still take it?  

[Calzy]

Soma does not have as bad of w/d's as the opiates, I had some drowsiness, nausea, skin crawing feeling and some irritability for a day or two. I took them for about 12 yrs and have taken 10 or 20 in a day but when i ran out it wasn't that bad of w/d's. Try to sleep it off. You got to want to do this and you can.