If you are 'hooked'

[katarina777]

If you're "Hooked"

'Allow me to introduce myself. I am your worst nightmare. I AM THE DISEASE OF ADDICTION. Cunning, Baffling and Powerful, that’s me. I have killed millions and I am pleased. I have successfully plagued whole civilizations because people thought I was beautiful. That’s the secret of my power.
The picture you see is not yourself. It is my picture, but I try hard to make myself look like you so everyone you love will be frightened. I am such a hated disease, and yet I do not come uninvited. Unexpected maybe, but not uninvited. Many of you unsuspecting victims have stumbled into my trap. I can make your strengths seem like weaknesses and mold your vulnerabilities into bars that hold you captive and allow me to have my way with you.
I give you instant gratification and all I ask in return is long-term suffering and sacrifice. Betrayal is what I do best. I love pretending I am your friend, your buddy, even your lover. I have given you comfort, have I not? When you were lonely, wasn’t I there? When you felt weak, didn’t I make you feel strong? When you wanted to die, didn’t you call on me?
I was there to manipulate your thinking, to toy with your feelings, keeping you thinking you can’t live without me. This is true glory to me. Your pain is my ecstasy; your destruction my joy. Together we were able to destroy all things good in your life and together we can continue the pain and destruction to its completion. All I need is a little of your cooperation.
You can handle my side-affects all by yourself. You don’t need help. Your don’t need detox - why would you want to get me out of your system - out of your brain? You don’t need treatment, or a 12 step program or counseling or any of those things you family and old friends keep talking about in order to weaken me and prevent me from manipulating or controlling you. There is an easier way that isn’t as demanding on your time and effort. When we meet again, I’ll show you the softer way. For now, I must lie here quietly. You don’t see me, but I am here growing in power every day. I long for and I look for the time when you need me again and until that day, I wish you suffering and I wish you death.'

*author unknown

[starfish1963]

I agree with Todd.  satan comes to rob destroy and kill.  he and his adversaries put out the bait, it looks good, feels good but after you take it you get the hook....Jesus said I didn't come into the world to condem it but to give you life more abundantly....It's been Jesus that carried me these 11 days and He gets all the glory...satan has no more power over me, he can have his drugs....I have Jesus and His Grace is sufficient :)  

[ABL4ME]

Wow - I needed to read this on day 3 of recovery!  Let me tell ya the evil is really trying to bring me back into his web of deception today, however, thanks to a lot of wonderful people I've met here and my own inner strength (which I will admit is very weak today)...I do believe I can make it back to the life I once owned.

Thanks for posting!

[katarina777]

addict: Thank you for the appreciation and understanding.

Tryson Red:  Your response is the purpose I posted this for, what I was hoping to touch by the post in another. because that is just what the value was for me and I must have read this text over 50 times over the years

'......that will give me more inspiration and courage to battle my own struggle...'

Thank You very much for your feedback, kat

[TysonRed]

I think that post may stay in my memory forever...I find it purely motivational in the understanding of what addiction entails...I believe that will give me more inspiration and courage to battle my own struggle...Thank You very much for posting!!!

[addict200]

Very powerful words with so much truth. I can related and feel as though he was speaking to me, I don't feel strong enough to defeat something so powerful with such a big hold on my thoughts and actions every minute of everyday.
Thank you for posting that, it's like something real to fight w/ a voice.

[katarina777]

PS:  I am not scared by the text in that what the author claims may come true for me and others, but because I can relate to the truth of the words from my own experience.

A person who is not affected by addiction like a majority to come to this site will not be haunted by a text like the above, because they cannot relate to it and will perhaps even think it is funny and exaggerated. But it is not.

It's just about as scary as it can get to see yourself so utterly out of control and helpless to change by reason and logic.

[katarina777]

The way I understand this is that someone who has struggled with a serious addiction, and has also seen others struggle, and be crippled by this disease, interpreted the process of 'addiction' itself to be just like Satan. So he wrote in that voice about the addiction, humanizing it just like we do God and Satan, from an 'I' position.

Yes, I find it very scary as well but that is because I recognize the power of truth in that voice. that does not mean that addiction equals Satan, but that it feels like it, and he gave the addiction an 'imaginary voice' that feels right to the author. i think he did a great job and that this text is not only scary, but also effective. It certainly touches me, and that in turn is therapeutic and helpful, as it helps me anticipate how I am going to feel at times when I have strong cravings and want to use. it also explains why the drugs worked so well in the beginning and seemed like a friend, but how this drastically changed.

Knowledge is Power. Still, this is symbolic and the author uses imagery. On the original page and which I could no longer find, there was a scary looking tiger, or lion lurking behind some bushes, just like one would imagine a real tiger waiting to attack his prey.

I hope that helps. Try to respect the scariness just like it is true in reality, but at the same time, that you, like Gail, can get to know your addiction well enough that it can no longer get you like when you are unaware of the power it has over you.

[Soon2BMrsTurner]

im confused, it wasnt written bt satan? or you think that satan is the addiction? im scared now and confused, Todd that is some serious caps =)

[NautyOne]

Dang all this is making me want to watch the "Exorcist"  ahhhh it burns !!  come on.  Its very well written by someone who was really party-in Hard !!!  lol.

Nauty............

[K Todd]

I am not saying that the devil wrote that.

I am just saying that is what Satin the Devil character is. He is a liar, and the father of them. He was a murder from the begining, and Satin hate everyone, does not matter if you believe in Jesus Christ or not....if were up to Satin, he would slice your throat in a heartbeat...there is NO love in Satin.

What I was getting at, is that is the very attitude and mindset of Satin the Devil...he will never present himself that way...because we would all run, but he is cunning, and decietfull, and hates you with the upmost intenstity!!!

The great news is that Satins worst nightmare is Jesus Christ, and all those you stand for and place their faith in Jesus Christ....

Satin is nothing but a defeated foe!

Todd

[katarina777]

Thank you for the info. I only meant that I did not know who the author was but what you are  saying sounds right on.

[K Todd]

LET ME INTRODUCE THIS KNOWN AUTHOUR TO HIS WORST NIGHTMARE...

JESUS CHRIST!


TODD

[K Todd]

THIS SO CALLED "UNKNOWN AUTHOR"...IS SATIN THE DEVIL...."HE COMES TO STILL, KILL AND DESTROY!"....AS GOD HAS ALREADY TOLD US.

CASE CLOSED!

MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
TODD

[sadinmichigan]

YOU GO SISTA!!! LOL..that was a fabulous response..I loved it and it got my blood going..lol..but most of all..it is the truth.

Kat-thanks for posting this..it does get one thinking a bit.doesn't it..

[katarina777]

I don't mind at all. i wanted to put it here so as to not be left alone with it. it's rather threatening but your response took a lot of 'his' power away and you inspired me.

[fengirl09]

sorry about the spelling!

fengirl09

[fengirl09]

Thanks for the post it really got me inspired this morning. I hope you don't mind, but I emailed it to some family. Very fitting.. I have to admit my response even surprised me.
SMILING!!!!!!!

Thanks again
fengirl09

[katarina777]

Perfect response and attitude and spirit, Vickie. i posted this because I think this article or text is very powerful and true but without a doubt you have figured out his/it's ways and maybe that is what we all need to know and be prepared for, like YOU.

[fengirl09]

You do not know me and you are very powerful, but let me assure you that I am more powerful than you. You did come into my life uninvited and unexpected, but I am throwing you out for good and I am more determined every day that you will not be invited back. You will not hold me captive and I don't want the instant gratification you give me in short spurts. I will NOT pay for that short term gratification with my personal suffering and mental and physical sacrifice any longer. I will no longer allow you to manipulate MY thinking, toy with MY feelings, or make me feel like I can't live without you, when I KNOW that in truth I CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!!! I WILL NOT LET YOU DESTROY ALL THE GOOD THINGS IN MY LIFE. ALL THE THINGS I DID WORK SOOO HARD FOR. I AM WORTH THE HARD WORK I AM DOING TO BE CLEAN AND HEALTHY, NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES. THIS IS A LIFE LONG PROCESS AND I AM WORTH DOING THE WORK FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. YOU WILL NOT WIN AGAINST ME. I AM MORE POWERFUL THAN YOU AND I WILL REMAIN MORE POWERFUL THAN YOU. THE POWER WITHIN ME WILL GROW EVERYDAY. SO DEAR DISEASE OF ADDICTION ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF  I AM YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE  I AM VICKIE AND I AM WORTH SAVING AND WAY MORE POWERFUL THAN YOU

fengirl09