Mr Dr Kicked me from his practice

[vicaddict]

OMG, I cannot beleive this. I talked to mY Dr via a note until I could get in to see him on Friday.

I told him about things, and asked for help in getting off the medication. ALso if he could write me enough to help me get through until my Apt Friday and at that time I wanted to discuss about getting off the medication with something in between to help me with the transition.

Well I just got a call back from the nurse and said that He is "Dismissing me from the practice" because I signed a contract with him and I have taken more than I am suppose to be taking.

This is what I get for opening up? Now what do I do? I am a total wreck.

I have NO dr now.  I hung up on the nurse. I KNEW that is what that contract was for so that he could boot me if he ever thought I was doing something wrong.

I told him that I was having a hard time coming off the drug. WTF, he started me on it. Now I get shown the door.

I do not know what I am going to do at all now. NOW I will be labled an addict for sure, and shown that I was kicked from his practice.

Anyone ever have this happen? ANd now how do I ever find another dr who does not think I am nothing but a F***IN druggie.

I am scared as hell now, and just totally freaking out.

No dr will ever trust me now thanks to this.

[vicaddict]

Oh I know hun. I got what you meant. I just myself had not even thought about that before I posted. :)

Yes lota of great feedback and advice. I am a little hopeful right now, but I know tomorrow is another day. I am going to have to stretch the few I have left and that in itself will be hard enough. Tomorrow I am afaid will be hell.
The GAL for our custody case is getting my records from my psychiatrist not my family dr. My fam dr was not who was treating my anxiety, depression and panic disorder. THANK GOD! They just want to make sure I am not unstable or a threat to my child with me having what is labeled a mental illness.

Thank you again, you and everyone. I so hope that this works out and fast.

[NautyOne]

Vicaddict.  It was not my intent to make you feel bad for posting by making the comment about other people and their doctors.  That was not my intent.  I did kinda sound that way, but that was not the way I wanted it to come off.  me and my big ole pie hole again, sorry.   Anyway,  regardless of whether you took too many pills or whatever, and yes you had the contract.  The fact that the doctor is behaving this was is disgraceful.  These doc's know exactly what is going on, and what they are doing and the whole point is...the don't give a rats pa-tutti as long as they keep filling out those rx sheets like that coward cop that hides behind a bush with his radar on the 29th of the month to make his monthly quota.  I am so angry I need a Clonodine.

Don't jump the gun.  This Doc is not going to destroy your life.  Did you say they are going to subpoena your medical records??  If they do, they will find out what you were  taking anyway, and this coward doc probably wont red-flag your records cause he is a piece of ****.  Again,  looks like your getting some good feedback.  Something good will come out of this.........I promise.

[vicaddict]

You know, even though I am so pissed off. Everything happens for a reason, god I pray this reason was to get me the help I truly need.

I been so scared to do this outside of my own home. Now I guess I am forced to. Meaning a sub dr, or something. Methadone is not an option for me. I am afraid of that stuff.
I am afraid of any narcotic of any sort after meeting Vic. So maybe this is a blessing in disguise, none the less I need help ASAP I cannot have to wait. I know I just am rambling on and on. I am sorry.

I should have seeked out a sub dr earlier but like I said I wanted to do this myself, plus was afriad to try anything else, then know I cannot do it alone so I confided in who I thought was who I was supposed to, and that was my dr.
Now I am stuck.

[hopeless]

My Best friend was in a terrible motorcycle accident 4 years ago, was NOT expected to live. Somehow God made it happen, She made it through! To this day, she is still torn up, her leg is half gone and has had over 10 surgerys, and has to have alot more...Anyway to make a long story short, she has seen here Dr. from the day this has happend to her, They had her on percocets for these 4 years. Well about 6 months or so ago, her dr. cancelled her and will no longer see her. Alot of it is because of how long she has been on the meds. Even though her dr. sat right there and told her "You are one person that will need to be n pain meds for the rest of your life" Then BOOM dismissed her! Since then she had to find a new Dr. who also told her that she will need to be on meds the rest of her life. But now all of a sudden she called them today, and they told her that after this month he will NO longer prescribe narcotics. She is so STUNNED! She actually needs them and now having the hardest time getting them. UNREAL!

Moral to this story is that Dr.'s are a JOKE!

Vicaddict - I really believe if you make those calls tomorrow, that you can and will find someone who can help you. You know you need the help, so PLEASE DO NOT give up! You WILL find the right Doctor for you, the one that truely does want to help you. They are out there, sometimes you just gotta make alot of calls to find the right one!

You say that you will be out of pills tomorrow, right? How many do you have on you right now? Can you cut them in half, at least so that way you will be able to take a few tomorrow...It is better than not having none to take! I have had to do this so many times. It sucks! I know, but better than not taking any at all...Hopefully if you can do this, maybe just maybe something good will happen tomorrow and a dr. can get you in sooner than you think. This is just a thought for you!

Good luck,
Hopeless

[shelby74]

Sub is used for getting off the junk - so I doubt that is going to matter.  They should be more then happy to help you - only problem there (I found this out first hand) is that they take time to get into.  There are other methods you can use.  email me - ms.shelby74 @ gmail.com  (no spaces)

[vicaddict]

We have 2 here in town. But not open right now, the nurse direct said that this dr IS taking new patients. However, I do not know how all this works. God I am scared. And I know they wont be able to get me in right away.

I been on this **** for 4 yrs and never have been w/o even if I only had 1/day. I am soo sooo scared.

By the time I get in to see one of these sub dr's I will already be committed somewhere.

I just cannot beleive this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And you can bet your asses I am pulling MY son from his practice. He was both our dr's. I always thought he was such a great Dr, for 6 yrs I thought that.
What a F***ING kick in the teeth.

I am sorry everyone, I am just so pissed off. Oh I cannot even begin to tell you. My head is banging from getting so upset.

I am thankful to have you all here for me, god I truly am.

[vicaddict]

Thank you both. IKES, I never even thought about that when I posted this! I just had no idea what to do or where to turn! I hope I do not make someone else NOT reach out to their dr.

Oh man, I honestly did not think about that when I posted this.

Well my Dr is justifying it by saying I took more than prescribed and was on a contract which is true. But I find it very mean to say the least that when I asked for help he totally shut me out. He had no problem writing my scripts the past few years but now I tell him I have taken more and want to stop I get shut out.
I will be up all night now, I know for sure.

I did though find a Sub dr here in town, but here again is in the hospital which is linked to my EX drs office. It is all affinity health systems. However, I do not think that they can NOT treat me b/c a Dr kicked me from practice.
I have 2 people I KNOW that have overdosed more than once, amongst having more than one kind of narcotic and these people are still with their same drs. Never were monitored, never had the meds taken away or lowered, nothing at all.

I do not understand this. What is it? They want you on this ****, or don't.
I find that truly disturbing to say the least. Neither of them 2 want any help at all, they like how their lives are and do not want to change it.
Something I am missing here?????

Does anybody know if there is anything I can legally persue against this Dr for this? I mean for just dismissing me like this after I asked for help?
I feel like I been discriminated against. You know what I mean? That is exactly how I feel right now. Not to mention how PISSED off I am.

[NautyOne]

omg.  You have made my worst nightmare come true.  When I read your post It took every bit of strength to pull my jaw up off the floor.  This is the exact reason I will not go to my doctor, and that is soo  sad.  I am so sorry this has happened to you, and your post is going to discourage so many others from doing what you thought, and was, the right thing to do.  I have heard of stories like yours, and it just makes me want to cry. My heart goes out to you right Now.  Try to relax and chill for a little while.  I know from just reading this board that so many of your roomies will come to your aid and will help you figure something out.  Deep Breath.....easy for me to say.  I know.

Nauty......................

[shelby74]

We have the same thing here - there are two main hospital "chains" in the area and each clinic they have are linked to one another.  I have not had to deal with it but someone I know did and was caught.  So she could only go to the other hospital and it's clinics after doc shopping (I am not saying you are doing that but I understand what you are going through).

I think your doc is the lowest form of life on earth and that is what I was saying earlier - we try to get clean and they **** on us.  I get so mad reading stories like this.  I am so sorry.

[vicaddict]

Thanks hun.. yes I will do that. Right now today everyone is closed. But I am so scared. Not to mention that tomorrow I will be completely out with nothing to help me through this. I been doing real well on a taper but stuck at that one spot. Now tomorrow like I said I will be completely out and no idea how I am going to do this, until I can actually get in to see someone.
Like I said, I highly doubt I will find ANY dr now that will be willing to write me any of these to help me through until then.

I am just a nervous wreck..I still cannot believe MY own dr, of 6 yrs just up and did this.
When he knows how long I have been on these, as he was the one who started me on them to begin with.

I just don't understand, or how the hell I am going to be able to get through this without totally nothing at all.

[hopeless]

Oh honey, i feel for you...I really do!

I know exactly where you are coming from. It is so unreal how when you finally get the courage up to ask and spill your guts out to get some help that this is what happens. Dr.'s can be so RUDE!

Listen, i have been in your shoes many many times. I am also a mom, and married! I am a good person who just unforunately got addicted to pain meds. You need to remember that we did NOT do this to ourselves. We are NOT bad people cause of this either. I want to try and help you as much as i can. I will do my best!

I made so mphone calls a few weeks ago, to a couple different dr's about gettin on the Suboxone...(spelled wrong, i think) but anyway, alot of the Dr's i called acted like they just didn't care about what i was getting ready to go through, but there was ONE i found that actually cared. I spilled my guts out to them on the phone, crying and all. I told them everything! They completely understood me. They wanted me to come there and get the help i needed. The only problem was, they couldn't get me in for a week later. I also didn't have insurance at that time. So what i am telling you is that maybe, (if you have insurance) contact a Dr. that deals with addiction in your area, (may have to try 10 of them before you find the right one) and talk to them, tell them everything! Tell them you want to get off these pills but you know you need help doing it. You will know when you talk to them on the phone if it is the right one for you or not. If you are talking to them and don't feel comfortable, by all means try another one, until you find one that makes you feel wanted and comfortable.

When you call these Dr's. Ask them if they deal with addifction, and ask them maybe about the SUB. It helps you deal with the w/d's. Keep trying call as many as you have to. Then let me know how that turns out. If it don't work out good for you, we will figure out something else, ok?

Either way, don't give up! There is hope and help out there...Just need to look in the right direction! Start tomorrow morning and spend all day trying.

I will wait to hear back from you, to see what else we can come up with!

I truely do understand, and know exactly where you are coming from. We open up and spill our guts and beg for help, it is just so UNREAL how some Dr.'s can be!

Please let me know if you get ahold of a Dr. tomorrow!

All my best to you!!!

Luv, Hope

[vicaddict]

PLus I was totally honest with the GAL, ( Government appointed lawyer for the child) about my past and drinking. Which I quit drinking 4 years ago, just out of no where and never looked back.

So this addicstion to the pain meds will hurt me if they knew, my ex knows nothing of it.
Not even that I take them.

God what do I do. I will be totally out of pills by tomorrow.

[vicaddict]

HI Hun;
Thank you, no I had not even thought about that. I had no idea they did that. I am looking now online for addiction drs here in town, only thing is I guess I don't really know who or what kind I need.
I mean do I look for a family dr, or an addiction dr. I know I need to find a new family dr too but I mean for this  problem. I just do not want to go on methadone or anything like that.
I do already have a psychiatrist who I see for my anxiety, panic disorder and major depression.  So I am unsure if he is who I should call or not. And there again, the GAL assigned to out custody case is having my records subpoenaed  to make sure I have never like had any thoughts of killing my children or anything like that, she said only b/c they are mental health issues and sometimes people do make those comments when they are overwhelmed. I said well you go for it, b/c that thought NEVER would ever cross my mind let alone come out of my mouth.
So, see it is touchy for me right now with the custody case almost ready to go to court.
God I feel totally trapped and lost.

[vicaddict]

Thank you all. I am just still shocked. I feel like someone slapped me right in the face. To answer your qn r2r, I had back surgery a few years back and now have chronic pain. Also more buldging discs again now which is what happened last time which led to slipped dics  2 had to be removed, then fused. I was great for about almost a yr. then it all started just like I was b4 my surgery. I have massive scar tissue I guess to from my last mri which this dr said may be part of the problem and arthritis in there, and now the other 2 buldging discs. I went through therapy, and injections. I can't have anymore injections they are too painful for me.
This dr did send me to a PM dr but right away he all but said I was an addict and had me mixed with another patient and accused me of abusing my meds and refilled early. I was like huh?? Then this PM dr said oh maybe I have you confused with someone else. I was like OMG, NO WAY.  I told my dr I would NOT go back to that dr.

So, now I open up tell him I want to come off these and the weaning was not helping. I asked that I be under his care and ask his advice and possibly something ( people speak of clonodine) anything to help with the transition. I also told him non-narcotic and said that is no longer an option for me.

Then this is what I get. I knew that contract was some BS so he could kick me b/c he already knew I was hooked. So I assume now that I am, he doesn't want any part in it so he is using my "contract" to "dismiss me from his practice". Saying I signed the contract and took more than I was prescribed. WTF. I tried to tell him this once before, and he said do not stop them abrubtly and sent me out with a script for 90. I thought wtf did I just miss. I was reaching out then and he just told me to "gradually" come off them. Well here I am and am unable to do that w/o getting sick.
I ask for help, admit that I can't do it alone. And I get the boot.
I am just so pissed off I cannot even begin to tell you. I almost drove there to tell him what an A** he is and he should be ashamed to call himself a DR. But I didn't.
Also the ER here is linked to his office, so I doubt even until I can fine a new Dr that they would even help me.

I think that it has hit the end, and I have no choice but to get sick as hell, and end up in the hospital b/c I won't be able to handle it or care for my kids.

[road2recovery]

very good post as always...you don't post enough!!!!  you know i think one day i was one of those people many yrs ago, and did i ever come down to earth with a BIG BUMP...
Keep posting your words help us so much
r2r

[Mangee]

Have you thought about contacting Medhelp with your problems. Perhaps they have a solution. Might be able to get you in touch with an understanding doctor or show you how to reach one. Any thing is worth a try if it helps solve your problem. You do not have to be shamefaced about your addiction problems. There are millions like us. It is the stiff necked, "holier than thou,"  people that look down their noses at an addict until it happens to them, someone in their family, or a good friend. Then they come down to earth with a solid bump.

[road2recovery]

i called my friend..She was going to Pain management..Well her doctor would do a pill count out of the blue, which she didn't know about..So she of course was short..He let her go..She asked around and found a not so strick pain management, and all she had to do was bring in her films..She was in a bad car wreck, and has some back issues..She said she didn't have to sign a contract there..
now she is a single mother too..I would try not to worry about it..
What is your pain? or is it recreational? and you want off?
hope this helps some
r2r

[nolightyet]

Wow.  Lousy doctor.  I hope that is some consolation.  I posted under another questions titled "HELP!!!" (I think) for the first time today, so I am just at the beginning stages of dealing with this and how bad it sucks, so I don't have any particularly encouraging things to say except what I've heard from other people, including someone very close to me, and that is that this can be beat.  But the fact that I'm convinced that your doctor is an *** is, I hope, something to laugh at at least.  Seems there are a lot of them.  That's why I want to try and do this without telling a medical professional--so I am not in the system, so to speak.  Still, I know I'll need to if things get too intense and you should be applauded for tackling this and going to someone--it is their crime for not helping you.

[road2recovery]

okay calm down----let's think..i don't think he can label you.isn't that confidential???  This happened to a friend of mine, so let me call her and see what happened.
i will be back
r2r

[vicaddict]

PLus my cistody case, wtf now???????????? I feel like I am in a nightmare. I cannot stop crying.