All DOWN THE DRAIN... I NEED SARA!!!!

[dedicatedtostop]

So the chiro said he didn't think it was a good idea to see me following what the ER doc said. Since I just moved and can't see my dr till next week... I. Broke down and went to a new dr in my new city this am. I told him everything!!!!!!!! He was probably the kindest hearted dr I ever met. He basically said I need another MRI. Can't do that now since I don't have insurance. He wrote a script for more pain meds( knowing everything) and told me that we needed to get through this and we would work from there. He told me that he would be by my side and do all he could to help me get off the pain meds(if need be) but right now he said I was putting myself through misery and nobody deserved that.I cried   and cried and cried and I am still crying now. I feel so hopeless.... Everything down the drain. I hate my freaking life right now so bad!!!!!!!!!!! Hubby has the ******* pills

[Emily_MHManager]

Hi there -

Since this is now more of a support thread, I'm moving it to Social.  We want you to continue to get the support, but since you are doing pain management now (which is necessary), it's better suited for that.

I'd also encourage you to post in the Pain Management Community - http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Pain-Management/show/53

Good luck, and feel better!

Emily

[dedicatedtostop]

Littbit.... Will check it out now

@cleaninitup.... Thanks for the positive post. I hope the steroid helps but geez all I need now is to be all wired up:)... Sheesh... Hope I don't get that way

[cleaninitup]

The steriod pack worked wonders for me! It took a few days to kick in but was wonderfull relief. The only draw back was it made SO hyper! Lol I was up half the night cleaning and eating! Lol best of luck with it-hope it helps!

[littlebit010101]

Hey hon glad u getting a break from the pain....a lot going on for me right now but look for my post of 50 days and it explains a little bit of what I'm going through..don't want to repost so go look at when u get a chance...much love, hugs and kisses....woo hoo 51 days......52 days tonight at 7:00.... Take care love hopefully I can get all these family things took care of and get back on here....chin up....

[dedicatedtostop]

I have been hanging around trying to respond to other post, not posting myself.

I think it's getting better, def not as bad as it was but the "horrible" pain down my leg and hip seems to come and go multiple times a day. Right now it hurts constantly but nothing like it was... So I would say I am better.

My new dr called in a steroid dose PAC yesterday and I am going to pick it up today and give that a try.

I did not go to my old dr Monday to follow up on all this because I simply was not up for the 2 hour drive.

I am still taking the 10mg hydo every 4 hours ONLY, I get a little releif but I hate taking them Sara.
I quit beating myself up over this because it is what it is. I just have to get through this and pick up and move on. The positive is that I am so conscious of taking them.

I plan on calling the new dr today and seeing if there is anything I can work out to have the MRI. If I can somehow do it without paying upfront then I am on it today!!!! I just can't come up with that much money.

I have to find out what's wrong with me because when it's bad, it's really bad. I can't just take pain pills to get me through, I need to find out EXCTLY what's wrong so that I can look at other alternatives.
At this moment, "it is what it is"

It's 8am here and I am waiting for the Dr office to open at 9 to check on that MRI. I really hope that I have in some sense just flared up the herniated discs and it will go away like it did a few years ago vs a new injury.

I keep going to bed and hoping I will wake up and it will be gone bit it's just not happening. On a positive note, I can walk around now.
Will keep ya posted on what the dr says

Thanks for caring

[dominosarah]

How are you doing?  Havent heard anything from you for a couple days now....

[littlebit010101]

I will its hard for me....I'm so use to taking care of other people..its hard to let people help me...but ill try promise.....lots of love...just take it EASY....I know u.....lol....

[dedicatedtostop]

Please do when you get some time, I am worried about you:(

[littlebit010101]

Hey u....so excited to hear u feel better....GREAT NEWS.....oh wow where do I begin?....lol...when I have more time ill share with u....I just wanted to make sure u were ok....I don't know how to pm I only have my phone and can't hardly find my way around...lol but ill figure it out...so glad u fell some better...just take it easy...ok...

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey love, I woke up today feeling "better" than yesterday:)..... Not great buy better. That's a step!!

Please fill me in on you, I think about you SO often???

I am here for you, talk to me. Pm if that makes you more comfortable

[littlebit010101]

Just checking on u....I love old movies....maybe u could rent some to help take ur mind off it....I hate this happened....please rest and try not to stress to bad only makes it worse...take care and chin up...one minute at a time remember that's how we got this far....I'm going to bed been a long, sad, heartbreaking week for me....I need some rest too...lol...holler if u need me....

[dedicatedtostop]

Thanks sara....... I have no clue what I have done to myself... The
Pain is now radiating to my hip... I am back on the 10's unit, still in bed:( I feel so hopeless right now

[dominosarah]

Back injuries are no fun and seem to take along time to heal.  You will get some relief, hopefully they will find the exact problem and then get it fixed, until then it is rest for you.  I know it is getting old but this wont last forever.  Put some good movies!

[dedicatedtostop]

Let me add this....... If I were not here for the support given this situation.. Do you really think I would spend my days posting on this forum... Crying out for help. I have pills, if I didn't want support and wasn't honest about this, I would take them and walk away grommets forum.

Sara... All I do is stay in bed and it's getting old.

Pain is a little better this afternoon compared to this am.

I am on heat today instead of ice. I really truly dint know what else to do!

[dominosarah]

How is the pain today?  Are you getting a good nights rest?  Retail therapy is always good for the soul!!

[littlebit010101]

Well I'm glad u got to enjoy some time with ur mom...sometimes that's all it takes too help our mental....and believe u me I don't waste any chance I get to spend with my loved ones bc u never it could be the last time...get ur ct done and find out what's going on and go from there...chin up and hugs to u...

[ImDONENoMore]

Please dedicated you gotta know vicki to know she's speaking from the heart here - she's only trying to get you to see another side to what's going on.  We want you to be well and to get off the pills that's all.  No harm was intended I'm sure of that.

Just sometimes when we're taking this stuff we're not thinking so clearly and I know you know all about that.  Believe me we've all been exactly where you are right now.  And we're sensing that you're not being completely upfront about everything - and if we've misunderstood we'll accept that.

Please keep posting - this place really is great for support (even if it doesn't feel that way sometimes).  If you're truly being honest, then there's no issue here okay?

[vicki595]

Oh...okay. That makes sense.  The clinic made these arrangements at 1 AM with you and the doctor or you called the clinic earlier and they now say you can make payments when it was a grand two days ago and at 1 AM the doctor took your call to assure you this cat scan would be done.

You're all set then!  It's worked out...so they all agree that a CT scan and not an MRI is a good diagnostic test?   That's good,too.  Do you have enough pain med to last until Monday? Let's see: you got 16 at the ER and how many from the new doctor on Thursday?   Enough?

[vicki595]

o,I guess you went shopping and didn't make any calls or couldn't get through to the people who might get you a less expensive MRI/CT scan?

Where's Mom in all of this? Is she realizing you need help?


I can't post to you anymore because...well, I'm afraid of what I'll say...

I do wish you well...

[dedicatedtostop]

Thank you so much for sharing, I really needed to hear that story... That someone else had a similar situation and in the end still beat it!! Thank you thank you thank you grommets bottom of my heart. This has been tough, all was so good, I worked so hard to be free and put myself in worse condition then I was 4 years ago:(..... Bless you

[0421]

Hi, I posted on a old site then seen this one so sorry I am going to respond to you again, I am the one that ask if you where the april 15 person becasue I felt a conection to you. I am  glad to see you back on here trying again, just to let you know you are not the only one to go through wd's and then lose all but we do what we have to. I was on 28 days clean when my back went out, went to my back/pain Dr and I went back on Vicoden again, but had my back injections and a nerve block and in a few days went back off the Vicoden and I know how you feel I felt like a loser but I am not and neither are you. I went through another more serious kind of surgery 4 weeks ago and went back on vicoden again but I am back off it again. You must have a resonable amount of pain relief before you can get clean. So know that when you get yourself up and running okay walking lol you can and will get clean, good luck and prayers to you, Bethany

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey all...

About the same today.. I met with my mom and done a little retail therapy but it was tough. I am back home in bed with ice:(..... Still taking the meds every 4 hours............. Sigh.......

[Dane74]

Hey girl just checking in on you, hows the pain today?

[dominosarah]

Hope you got some good sleep and are feeling better today.